Apologies to Sai children whom I write about without their knowledge

Sairam friends,

Today, for the first time, I felt little concerned if its right for me to right explicitly about the day to day experiences I come across in life be it temple, office, neighborhood or any other place for that matter. The only privacy approach I have is making sure, I don’t write the name and use the word “Someone”.

How it works?

So how do I actually think when I write about people without their knowledge. The most common characters in my articles are my parents and thankfully they never know what I write here. My Sister too never comes to StarSai. Every year, I request her to pay the hosting fee and I force her to do it though she loves it. Since she has little time for prayers, I want her to earn the good deed of contributing to Sai’s temple of humanity.  I still never share a single article with Indra. To me, its too embarrassing as she’s very focused and practical in life. She certainly don’t like me being too emotional and sensitive. She doesn’t like me fearing. Fearing for little things in life. Anyway, She just knows her brother is doing something good through “StarSai”.

I used to have a forum for Sai devotees back in 2006-2011. Once, my Sister logged and posted a message to everyone which really hurt me.  I told Indra that my life is different from hers and she can’t understand what I am going through. She left it and never bothered me again.

When it comes to the other people I write about, it can be categorized into two

1. People whom I write about on my own will.
2. People whom Sai shows in dream

The first is obviously a nature of a writer though I am not a professional writer. I have to express what I felt or gone through. Whom I liked and whom I felt might change for good. I learn from the people I come across in day to day life.

The second category is unintentional.

Sai works in a mysterious way

Saints works are hard to understand. I have experienced a lot on how my sweet Sai Baba uses dreams to communicate but some dreams are hard to interpret friends.

I will give you an example.

Once, I had a dream that I go to a Sai friends house to see their new born baby. I woke up and told her she will soon have a child by Sai grace. It came true. A baby in their life after 8 long years.

I have not even seen this friend of mine as she lives in the U.S and never will for lifetime.

On another occasion, I had a dream in which Saibaba took me deep inside the sea. I can never write the experience in words. He shows me how much saints have to suffer to save life of millions of people. I am not telling under which City Sai took me down and what he did. It’s a spiritual secret.

But when my life is full of disappointments, I do ask Baba  this way “You are so powerful that you can do your leela to avoid a natural disaster but can’t you bring happiness in my life?”. He won’t answer for he knows I am his servant and will adjust everything he does and he doesn’t do to me.

The funniest dreams are those I get about people in office.

Once my friend told me that he has cold and he’s going to drink crab juice and go home. I told him, feel pity for poor creature and don’t drink. That night, I had a dream as if the Crab is slapping him..he he…he did not came to office for 2 days due to fever. I make fun of him saying, the Crab you drank got angry and made you sick.

Four years back, I heared the name of a guy in dream and wondered why on Earth should Baba tell me his name in a scary tone. I was told that he got engaged on the same day.  Few month later, he faced lots of issues with his wife. Later, things did got smooth but I know for sure, his life is a compromise.

Thrice Saibaba showed me a girl at work and said “She’s going to get married”. Each time, I asked Baba “Why are you telling this to me?”. I don’t even speak to that girl and she’s not my friend too. I am confused Baba..ha ha.. Finally, when she resigned I felt good for atleast I can escape from dreams about her.

Then, recently, I saw this girl in dream in which Baba said she will bless her with peaceful pregnancy. Fine but why are you telling this to me Sai? The only benefit is that I write article about it and many other devotees in similar situation are benefited.

So basically, when I write about people I come across in day to day life, its little embarrassing for myself for I think what if they read my articles and found I only wrote about them? Is it not invading their privacy. If I think too much, I can’t present experiences the way it should be. It’s ethical as long as I don’t hurt anyone. That’s how I take it until now. Let’s see how I write articles in the years to come.

Today, I asked to Baba in mind, “What kind of dreams will I get if I am not part of this office environment?” What if I don’t meet anyone? Even for this, Sai has an answer. Sometimes, I get dreams related to happenings in the society. Yesterday, I had a dream – A very bad one and when I saw the news paper this morning, I realized some wrong doing is happening in the name of spirituality in several places in India.

Personally, at home, my parents get really upset that I speak about dreams I get very often. Sometimes, they listen eagerly but at times warn me not to live in dreams.

Irrespective of all the justification I give, I still wish to be careful that I don’t invade others privacy.

Sai has to show me a way.

I humbly apologies to each and everyone of you for writing about people without their knowledge.

I have to do it because

I am “Experiencing” You!

Learning from “You” and

Have some affection on “You”

Star Sai is all about “You” and “Sai”.

I try to connect what I learn from you with with Sai!

Call me Sai’s servant or crazy stupid.

I keep writing!

It’s not written just for you. It’s for Sai children who will certainly find pearl from the ocean of my words for thousands of years ahead…

Om Sai Ram

Venkat