Sairam friends,
I did some filming yesturday morning at work. It was cloudy and hence the light was soft and I liked it. I wanted to shoot more to complete the promo video but somehow, I repeatedly feel that I am disturbing these people at work and simply did nothing the whole of afternoon. I told my friends that I am not comfortable shooting at workplace.
Anyway, I hope to complete this by next week.
I completely avoid watching movies for the past several years since it makes me remember my filmmaking days. When ever I use my Camera in an IT organization, I feel painful asking myself if this is what I am destined to do in the end? Who are these people and what am I doing here? I could have been someone else. Probably, Sai thought I won’t be successful as a filmmaker and made me decide to come out of it. I was happy even when I taught Filmmaking in Mumbai. Now, I am just holding on to a job since it helps me live in Coimbatore with my parents.
There are many youngters who write to me about what they aspire to do in their life. Well, Saibaba will help. The more dedicated you are towards your work, the better will be your life. Just be little flexible with your desires. There are few who want to get admission in a specific university alone or those who wish to get a job in a specific list of companies alone. Sai will surely help you if you work for it sincerely.
However, Sai knows what eventually would be good for your life.
I accepted this life which Sai gave me. I understand that this is going to be the right one for me. I love Coimbatore too because I have been here most of my life. I don’t have any goals as such. I eat, sleep and nothing else. I do some side projects but Sai has always hinted me to stick to this full time job and never quit this.
I am just a survivor. Not a happy survivor.
Another ordinary Indian worth nothing.
With the way Sai took the journey of my life both professionally and personally, I realized Sai wishes that I live like a stone. I must not have any desires, goals or even need. I simply can survive as long as I am destined to live.
Wish Sai atleast helps me spend over a month with my Sister’s Daughter. If I don’t meet her at this stage in her life, She might never know who I am. She will simply think that I am a 2 dimentional human appearing on skype occasionally and asking about her plans. I never had any plans to go to the U.S all my life. Since my Sister can’t come to India for the past 8 years, I don’t have any other option.
Just to get leave approval, I am waiting over 20 days. This is the life I accepted. Being a corporate slave and doing stuff I don’t enjoy doing.
And this is the life Sai blessed me with probably since he assumed this one is better than any thing else.
Tata
Venkat
