Sai,
I am really scared of my life. I am not able to stop my parents anymore. Why are my relatives simply giving some numbers to my parents to speak to girls family? I don’t like this. I know they get old and am myself not too young to wait but this is not for me. I don’t like to marry this way and this is not my life at all.
I have never waited all these years to marry someone in such normal way. I wish no one likes me because what ever happens in my life, it must happen through You Sai. I really feel painful to see my parents worry about me but Sai has to take control of my life. Sai alone has to show me my girl and I don’t know why you are silent saibaba.
Please make my parents understand my feelings and not hurry like this. They love me so much and care for me. They get really upset with me if I tell them not to do anything as they feel I am not giving them their rights. Its not about rights. Its about my devotion on you Saibaba.
When my parents speak over phone etc, I get so scared and wonder why I fear like this. I really know that I can only live with a girl I know personally. I can’t simply fit in life of a new girl suddenly appearing from some family and may be she won’t like me later. I can’t say anything to my parents as they are not so healthy and they waited enough listening to me. Now, Please do something baba. I don’t like all this.
I have a fear that if I marry some girl who don’t know me as a friend, she will end up leaving me someday and my whole life will be ruined. I really don’t like any week end when my parents start this topic. I loose all my interest to work and live happily now.
I need peace of mind now. I want you to work on my life and not anyone else. I know people will say may be Sai will do it through your parents as my Ma herself tells me. But I want Sai to do it directly. I belong to Saibaba and Sai must be responsible for my life. I must not simply marry someone and suffer for life time.
Please Saibaba. You do what is right for me and make my parents happy.
Please don’t make me get so scared like this. I can’t argue with my parents anymore Sai. I am trying to be calm because I know you alone can choose my girl or better leave me single.
Please show me your presence and that you are taking control of my life Saibaba.
I love you so much Sai
Getting so scared in my heart now. Please don’t make any girl like me. I have ignored all the girls my parents suggested so far and they kept calm. Now they feel the girl looks good etc and I don’t have a choice. Please do something to take my life in your hands.
Baba please work on my life.
Venkat
I feel so embarrassed to write to you in StarSai for everyone to read. Seems the whole world knows my story. I believe I will tell the world someday, that Sai only did it to me. Sai alone knows who’s good for me. Please make my parents believe that you will do good to me Sai.
To know the unknown is what we call as miracles. Baba’s Blessings.Shri Sainathayanamaha.
Dear Venkat
Star Sai is ur space to write.
So u can share ur thoughts. Maybe someone who is in ur situation wl get sme peace of mind.
Sharing ur difficulties boldly wth the world & on a blog is not everyones cup of tea.
Ur very brave to do so.
Next, i understand ur fears but give ur parents a chance too.
Meet the girls but keep in mind wht ur looking for in a life partner.
Maybe our old man Sai has a plan for u to meet someone thru arranged marriage.
U can always work on the relationship & friendship, just gve lots of time & support to the girl.
Rest all leave in Sai’s hands….
Dnt be scared… The future is in ur hands & u hve Sai’s grace wth u … So hve faith make a wise choice & give ur parents a chance to help u settle dwn….
May Baba always bless u
Edit – Yes. I am OK with parents trying. My parents don’t say a word if I say NO. So I always have my freedom. Just that I feel a bad for making them wait. I have hurt them enough especially the past 3 years.
They are not going to U.S to take care of Sisters daughter as they want to get me married this time. What can I do when Sai needs time? I want Sai to be responsible for my life. In other issues, its fine. I already suffered a lot in relationship issues which made me too sensitive and also this fear of marrying and suffering more. Only if Sai chooses my girl, I will marry. I am very clear about this – Venkat
I really hope things work out for you.
I also pray that your wish is fulfilled. Baaba will take time but never forget you.
Sainath will definitely walk with you.
om sai ram.
don’t get so much scared, when sai baba is with u. BABA HIMSELF HAVE SAID ” WHY FEAR WHEN I AM WITH U. HAVE PATIENCE AND FAITH”..
I can too understand building a good relationship and understanding with sum one through out the life its very difficult. And u have to take care of ur parents and ur family also, so ur health and ur ages is also important.
baba’s grace is with u, surely he will select the best for u.
good luck…………, u get what u desire. I will pray for u. Baba is there to take care of his all devotees.
After reading this its seems as if i am reading my own life.
Bhaiya everything is gonna we fine for all of us. Baba will definitely help us. Specially you.