Sairam friends,
Its easy to aspire something but doing it matters. Last night, it was raining and hence I could not go to temple. I also felt its better to avoid traffic and sat in the canteen to speak with one of my Sai friend Namrata who’s doing her Phd in JNU, Delhi. We spoke about our lives and I felt good having a wonderful conversation with her. When ever she told me that she got depressed because of her research work, I understood that I should prepare myself to do Phd. Its certainly not fun and I wonder how I am going to manage.
Its the only thing Saibaba expects from me. He told me “Your life will be good if you do Phd” in a dream couple of years back. Sai alone knew what future holds for me? So its better I listen to Saibaba and work on it.
I have wasted years in my life. Now, after looking at my Sister and how she works, I realized its important to do something productive.
At work, I am open for anything. Either, I should loose my job or I should get what I want. I wonder what next if I loose my job. I told my parents that I had enough and have to accept it. Hope Sai does what works best for me. Thankfully, because I decided to quit from the team, I realized what people are upto and how they actually perceive me. If I am forced to stay back in the same team, again, I have to adjust but have to look for other jobs. I can’t work with few low lives and sit doing nothing. I pray Sai that the meeting next week goes well.
Saibaba will help us in all possible ways but we should do our part. Sai is going to sit back and watch. I am the one who’s supposed to so what matters most to me.
I am always remembering my Sister. I miss Sioux falls, the streets, Downtown, the Big Sioux River, my Sisters beautiful home, our biking track and the fun I had with my niece. The best part was the park where I used to go alone with Sai Satcharita book and sit silently. I smile to people I come across and sometimes, speak couple of words to them.
Now,I am little worried about my life.
When ever I see someone young, I tell them to learn early in their life so that they don’t have to suffer like me.
Sai blessings
Venkat
