Annapurna, forgive me for offering you a Saree and not coming for darshan

Sairam friends,

This evening, one of my friend took me in his bike to some roads where I have never been to. Last weekend, when I went to Bhadrakaali Amman temple in Vellakinar with my parents, I saw a priest who said he serves in a temple in Chinnavedampatti. I forgot the name of the temple he mentioned and this road has always confused me. He told me some landmark which I listened as if I could recognize but I honestly did not. So I told my friend that I wish to see where this road leads to. It was dark and we went too far. Later, we turned as I wanted to go Nagasai Mandir.

In 2012, I had a dream in which I heared the name “Akilandeshwari”. I used Google maps to find a very small Akilandeshwari temple and went there. It was too dark while I walked back to the main road through the residential area. I did not felt satisfied for going all the way to that temple. In Coimbatore, I like Annapurna temple in RS Puram and Bhadrakaali Amman temple a Kilo meter from my home. Annapurna is certainly a sweet heart because I love the fragrance of her kumkum. Twice she came in dream and asked for a Saree. First time, I offered a Saree in Green color and the priest beautifully dressed her like Meenakshi Amman. The best part is, I even saw the shop where Mother Goddess wanted me to get the saree from.

Very recently, my Mom got a dream as if Hanuman is asking for her Saree.  Someone told me that Hanuman’s tail is actually Goddess Parvati herself. So I decided to offer this Saree to my sweet little Annapurna devi.  I did not even tell my parents that I am going to offer a saree to Annapurna. I went to the shop in RS Puram and bought a saree in rose color. That’s how my Mom described it. I really like the old priest in this temple. I told him that my Ma had a dream and gave him the saree. He asked me to come on following Monday to have darshan as he will be wearing it to Annapurna on that day.

I could not make it to that temple on Monday and never regretted it.

After few weeks, I felt something is wrong with my attitude. Did I offered Saree to Annapurna just because she asked for it? Due to our devotion, Saints blesses us with dreams to inspire us to offer something to God but we must do it with love instead of simply following what’s instructed and closing the task.

If I really had true love on her, I must have atleast tried to go to the temple. I never even tried or desired to have darshan of Goddess Annapurna.

What’s in a Saree? Does the mother who takes care of the whole universe and feeds them in need of a saree from me. She wanted to encourage my devotion on her and expected that I will eagerly go for her darshan when the saree i offered is being worn by her.

I am too mechanical not to realize this beautiful love Annapurna had on me.

Forgive me my Annapurna and ever bless me…

I am getting late now.

I will be in Chennai from Thursday for cousins wedding. Really don’t feel like going but have to be there for parents sake. Oh God….4 days in Chennai. Sai please save me and help me keep myself active. I will go to Mylapore Saibaba temple.

Tata

Venkat