Sairam friends,
Every full moon day, I have a habit of going to Lord Murugan’s temple. Today being a full moonday, I had desired to go to Palani hills as he’s our family deity. Since my Mom is not well, I don’t wanna travel any where. This morning, when I woke up, I was thinking about Lord Murugan and how he helps a devotee.
Murugan is a Warrior God in that he’s the one who kills the demons and secures people.
These demons could be your sickness, the obstacles you face in your education and career and the negative qualities in you or your dear one’s which is ruining your family life. I believe Murugan kills these negative aspects, obstales and difficulties in one’s life.
A quality I like about Lord Murugan is this –
Either you must be well learned or you must be associated with people who are well learned.
When you are devoted to Murugan, he will certainly bless you with knowledge or keep you in association with people who will share their knowledge with you. This way, your chances of shaping your life better are high.
Deleting aricles I wrote about the dreams I had on this girl
Initially, I did a mistake of sharing the dreams I had on this girl to 3 of my friends. I will regret it forever because they only made fun of me and my Sai. It’s OK to call me phychic or a fool but because I can’t prove my dreams are true, I let them hurt my Sai too. It happened over a year back.
In the past 1-2 month, I started writing explicitly about what ever I had gone through in StarSai. I thought people who come here are Sai devotees and they will understand me. Once again, I realized this too is a mistake. There are some dreams in which Sai tells me about doing something useful for the country which I can share publicly.
Dreams about this girl at work is very personal to me. I can share it with this girl if ever I get an opportunity or I will keep it to myself. I will treasure it as a secret for lifetime. Thankfully, I did not wrote about all the 30-40 dreams I had over the past few month.
I felt really embarrassed for writing about a girl. Tommorow, She could marry someone. She has her own dreams and aspirations. I am nobody to say that I had few dreams on her.
I deleted few articles in which I wrote a lot about this girl in the past one month. The other articles has only the ending part about her. So left it as it is.
Sai saved my Mom and I am satisfied with that.
I don’t want Sai to answer me why he blessed me with dreams of this girl.
It just happened and its over now. I won’t forget it for lifetime but let me keep it personal.
A saint like Sai can never be wrong. He will do something which could hurt us and make us feel embarrassed. This must not lead us to depression. We must have patience and be calm.
Only in this girls issue, I was doing all the tantrum of writing some experiences related to this girl and saying that I am depressed and Sai is not helping me etc. I am like this to a certain stage. Beyond that, I will natually calm down.
Just that I can’t bear Sai showed me a dream and did not help me when I reacted to it and feeling embarrassed. May be, that’s Sai’s plan.
It doesn’t hurt to be a fool to please my Sai.
I enjoyed being a fool to this girl, my friends and thousands of people who come to StarSai.
I hope someday, people will understand me.
I wish to calm down now.
My Mom is not completely well. I don’t wanna go to work today. She says that She will manage and hence I am leaving. When life gives me other problems to take care of, I have to let go of few which will only hurt me more.
Sai blessings
Venkat
