The poor fakir who din’t fulfill your desires and accepted all your scoldings – Who can be more caring than Sai?

Dear friends,

Being devoted to Saint Shirdi Saibaba for almost 20 years from 1993, having experienced so many leelas of Sai, served near his Holy Dhuni in Nagasai mandhir, cleaning sacred udi and filtering it for years together, i still have habit of getting upset with Saibaba when he doesn’t fulfill some of my desires.  Although my desires can be justified as i had faced set backs for years togather in various issues, i still have patience. Even after all this, when Sai was not able to fulfill my desires, i say

“Baba atleast now show your grace”

“You only care for others”

“You keep silence for too long with out showing ray of light in my life”

I never got angry on Baba for more than few hours but its natural to get angry on the one whom we trust from bottom of our heart. At times when we are not able to withstand the problems in our life, we think Sai has not helped us and sometimes even scold Sai looking at his Photo, Statue or imagining Sai in our mind.

We always see Saibaba of Shirdi as a great Yogi with Ashtama Siddhi – The one who has all the 8 miraculous powers. So we believe Sai can do any thing for us, if he just wills. Yes. It’s true friends but we never know what’s actually good for our future. Sometimes, Sai likes to remain as a Poor Fakir of Shirdi. That doesn’t mean he can’t help us.

Sometimes we might think, if we get a specific job, our life will be good and when we fail to get the job, we hurt Sai by scolding him. Even Devotees of Lord Shiva take rights on him and scold him as they believe the God whom they worship day and night is the one who must take care of them. Similarly, its ok to scold Sai but i wrote this article when devotees go beyond it.

1. There are devotees who get so upset with Saibaba that they stop worshiping him.

I know a Girl who was truly devoted to saibaba, Read Sai Satcharitra and Guru charitra regularly and just because she was not able to marry the guy whom she desired, she completely stopped Sai Devotion. Stopped going to sai mandhir etc.

2. There are devotees who continue to be upset with Sai for more than few minutes.

When we are upset, we get angry with our parents, husband gets angry with wife and children gets angry with their parents. So the Devotee and Sai to makes a family. When i scold Sai, its because i have rights on him, I love him and i feel He is everything to me and i expected him to help me and show me  away. When my expectations are not fulfilled, i do get angry on Sai.

But this anger is natural when its there for few seconds or minutes. Some devotees continue to speak bad about Saibaba to others and say sai din’t help them etc. This is where, it gets too painful.

Kindly understand , Sai is truly our mother. He cares for us every second. Even when we fail, remember Sai has better plans for us. Sai is teaching us lessons in life or Sai is making us strong and know the world better.

In Sai Satcharitra, there’s a beautiful incident

Once a devotee asks Saibaba,

“Baba, so many devotees comes to you, Do they all gain fruit of their devotion. Are they all benefited”

Baba replies

“Look at the flowers in the Mango Tree, How beautiful it would be if all the flowers becomes a fruit but do they, Many wither in between. Similarly, Only the devotee who stays faithful with me for in hard times, tastes the fruit”

Who can  be more Caring than Sai?

Friends, Sometimes i feel why Saibaba din’t help me and he’s the answer as you already know. We are bounded by our past Bad karma which we did in this and previous births. We have to involve in good thoughts and actions in this birth to gain enough blessing that Sai can get Gods permission to do his Sai Leela and fulfill our desires.

Will it be good to place the prasad (sacred Food) in your hand when your palm is dirty? Saibaba is letting you face difficulties and Pains as he wants you to gain wisdom through experience. Someday when your palm is clean, Sai himself will bless you with sacred Prasad and make you lead a peaceful life.

I had wrote this message earlier years back but i felt like writing again because am going through few issues now and praying Saibaba to show me a way. I also realized, Many devotees like me who are upset with Sai must love him dearly irrespective of the failures and difficulties in their life.

Finally, We are responsible for all our sufferings in life. Try not to get angry on anyone. Not on Sai and not with friends or family members. Keep Chanting Sai, Sai, Sai or any chantings you like of any Gods/Goddess you love and continue to do your duty sincerely. Work without bothering about results. Someday you will feel the Poor fakir who din’t fulfill your past desires has actually helped you by making you a better person.

Sai lives in yourself as Antaryami.

Sai is with you.

Do you need more?

Aum Sri Sai Ram

Venkat

Little Servant of Shirdi Saibaba

24/11/2012