Focus on Shirdi Saibaba

Sairam friends,

The past two days somehow I was not able to go to the temples I usually go during week ends. Saturday, I felt uncomfortable and on Sunday, I felt may be Sai wants me be in one place and focus on my work.

Yesterday evening, My parents wanted to go some relatives home to greet one of my cousin as he got married recently. I accompanied them but I din’t go to relatives home. I went to near by temples and felt good.

While coming back, I had a feeling if Sai gave me this experience for a reason. I have been worshiping some very fierce Goddess a year back and know how they behave at times. They are too fierce that they listen to what ever you say. I don’t want to mention the name of this Goddess because some people may use it for wrong reasons. When I kept chanting her name, she suddenly gives me a vision for fraction of a second when I used to lay down in bed and I used to hear some voices.

I can’t say this to my parents. So I realized some very fierce goddess may not be right for everyone to worship. As a Hindu, I still love all my Gods and Goddess and I will continue to go to temples. Just that I reduced my devotion on this fierce Goddess.

Further, I have been getting a thought that being a servant of Sai for several years, I still don’t know about my Guru. I honestly don’t know my Sai with whom I eat, sleep and do every little thing in life.

I wanted to spend sometime learning about Sai the way Sai wants me to learn. I am planning to sit in Saibaba temple in a corner during week ends and read Sai Satcharitra. I really want to know Sai’s true nature and will be working on it from today.

After many years, today, I recited little bit of Shirdi Saibaba’s Kakad Aarti while writing this article. I usually don’t sing or recite Aarti as I had been doing physical work cleaning dhuni in Saibaba temple. Now a days, I don’t do it much as friends are taking care of Dhuni and temple has changed a lot. When I get an opportunity to clean Dhuni, I love to do it.

What ever business I do online, I see humans need some inspiration, motivation and spiritual guidance.  Sai kept telling me 2-3 times to focus on that.

As I told you, there are so many people to make economic change in the society but probably Sai wants me to work on the minds of people to create a beautiful, peaceful life for themselves. I just can’t make it as a career. So I am doing something else to support myself. Honestly, I created StarSai in 2004 when I realized many innocent people are being cheated in the name of Spirituality and religion.

I have a purpose for StarSai other than telling the stories of my life. Before I die, I will leave a beautiful place for generations to walk in and have an emotional change in them to lead a better life. Probably, this could never be a place. It could only be an experience which I leave behind.

Anyway, am getting late to go office.

To Sai devotees who mailed me, If I am not replying your mails, It means I am making you depend directly on Sai but certainly my prayers for you and your family.

May Sai be with us

Venkat