Getting old, Sick and still loving Sai

Sairam friends,

The past few days has been very hectic for me as I had to do things my parents requested me. Since my Father is taking rest, I had to roam every where. Last night, I was reading a book and suddenly got Dizzy. I felt that I will remember God and Sai in that state of mind and slept off without telling my parents. I woke up and still felt dizzy as if the room and walls are revolving around me..he he..

I slept off silently as my parents will be upset if I tell them that I am sick. I did tell them I am not feeling well.

I had a dream too.

It was like I am in a temple 3kms or something from Thanjavur. I am not able to remember the temple name. Probably. Abathsahayeswarar temple in Alangudi famous for Guru Bhagavan. I see a devotee rolling a Lemon and the size of the lemon grows big in size like a Orange fruit.

Since I was not feeling well, I asked my Ma to give me Lemon juice. I felt much better after that and started to work. Baba also asked me to keep faith in him and him alone. May be, Sai knows my mind is getting distracted.

I never felt so weak in all these years and hope I feel dizzy only since I was tired and nothing serious. I am not able to write in StarSai regularly as I am planning few things and not able to focus on anything properly.

Today, I went to Sai Baba temple and met my elderly friend. He’s very old man and speaks so good. I love him a lot. He’s Telugu and I like the way he stands in front of Sai portrait and says “Baba..Nuve Gathi” This actually is a way of telling Sai baba that we are surrendering to him completely. I spoke to my friends for few minutes and reached home.

I feel that I am getting old, sick and that I have just 20 years more to actively contribute.

So what am I going to do for 20 years? What I do for the next 2 days itself is not known to me.

I don’t like to do any work. Its time for me to build and I hope Sai helps me do it.

For now, I just wish to make my parents happy.

Sai, Show me a way…

Venkat