Sairam friends,
Did i write too much about my personal life? Today while i was in Sai mandhir, I felt its better to delete few posts as i don’t want any one to get hurt and i already deleted one. May be in future, if Sai guides me, I might pull off other posts regarding my personal life too. To be frank, in that case most of starsai will be dried. He he…anyway, I just want to make sure no one is hurt and I only do good even to people who harmed me.
Today i have a very good memory of how crazy i was in Sai bhakti in 2005. I used to come around dhuni -Sacred fire in Sai mandhir for 4 to 5 hours and give Sai photos to devotees who are sad. I used to go to Anuvavi Subramanian temple every tuesday for 52 weeks. It’s a temple in the same hill but on the other side of Marudhamalai in coimbatore. I used to get two packets of sugar, flowers and Avul for Murugan. One packet of sugar, i used to drop over the rocks and trees while i walk over the hill. Some devotees will ask what i am doing and i say “Erumbuku” (It’s for the Ants)
Learning to feed Ants with Sugar:
In 2003, I used to have food in a Brahmin old lady’s house who is a devotee of Krishna. She told me
“Its good to feed 1000 people, if its not possible, at least feed thousand Ants.”
From that day, I used to have sugar in a bottle. Everyday when i start to Editing room, I make three packets of sugar and do my prayers.
I got a original Photography of Kareena Kapoor and stuck it on the wall. One of my Bengali friend came in my room and told me “Why do you have such pictures when you are so devoted to Sai?” I said, its taken by a cinematographer I admire and am working in that film. He said ” Remove It” and I immediately tore it off. Probably this could be Sai’s wish too for he wants me see him alone and not get into Maya…. he he…
I still remember the Shirdi Sai baba poster which was stuck to the wall in my mansion room. My room mate Somu who was a Sound Engineer used to say “Uppa Kiss adikaporan da” .(You are going to Kiss baba now) …. Yes. It was my everyday habit to Kiss the Sai picture before i move out.
I also used to drop a packet of Sugar near the Lakshmi Narasimhar Statue in Shiva Vishnu temple in T Nagar. The priest once was scolding “Evanu therila, dhanamum Sakkara potutu poidraan, erumbu enna kadikudhu” . ( I wonder who is dropping all these sugar everyday, Ants are biting me only ) I can’t control laughing but moved away as if am not aware of it. Now you know why i call me stupid.
After my work, I usually travel to Nungambakkam near Ishpahani Centre. I start to walk in Nungambakkam High road and take right cut opposite to a Star Hotel (Chola Sharaton i think). Its residential area, less traffic and the roads used to have some grasses in the corner. I take out other 2 packets of Sugar and drop them over the grasses. Every single day, some Ants in this area were fed miraculously and the Miracle is “Venkat”…He he..
Learning to Say “I love Sai” in German:
Then I used to go to Max Muller Bhavan – German Cultural Center and sit in the varanda there.How much I enjoyed those days watching German Film festival, Sitting in Library, Attending some events etc. One Mam who teaches German there is fond of Cats. There were so many cats which she named snowy, Blacki etc. One girl asked her why not keep a tamil name for cat and named it “Singaari”…He he…
I had a German friend Stephanie who came Chennai for her training. Fortunately, My sister did her Phd in the same university. So when Stephanie returned to Germany my sister made her Dosa which she truly loved. For next many years, my Sister used to scold me ….
“You went German Cultural Center every day simply to have snacks and Tea. At least you could have learned German during those days”.
The only sentence Stephanie taught me in German was “ich liebe dich” . No prize for guessing what it means. So i know to say “I love Sai” in German
“Ich Liebe Sai”
I had taken Stephanie to Mylapore Saibaba temple. Most of the Westerners don’t get it right when we worship Sai. She asked me pretty blank “Why do you worship a Human?’ . I said “He is my Guru, My God, my friend and my Love”. One of my biggest goal in life is to spread Sai devotion in other countries. On Jan 1st 2007, Sai blessed me with a dream that 100 years from now 30 % of the worlds population will worship Sai.
My love for Anuvaavi Subramanian temple:
Coming back to my visit to Anuvaavi Subramanian Temple, I used to sprinkle sugar over the rocks, under the trees and climb the steps. I love the water which flows in Anuvavi. Its so chill and fresh. After a very tired walk above, when i wash my face and drink this water, i feel blissful. Then when I stand infront of Murugan offering flowers and Avul to priest, Its truly wonderful moment in my lifetime.
I used to spend entire day in the temple as no one will be there. I love Murugan and Valli Dhaivanai in that temple. There is only one shop below this hill “Mani Tea Stall”.My friend Kanna used to tease saying “If Venkat goes anuvavi, Mani will be happy as he eats so much”. I used to get chips packet to drop for crows there. So many crows eat these chips happily friends.
Muruga, how much I miss the days I spent going to your Anuvaavi.
My love for Books:
I used to simply roam in Landmark in spencers reading some books. It was one of my favorite place. I shall write in next post about a book which created a big influence in What i am in years to come.
So that’s it friends.
Did you understand what i tried to convey by this post?
I took you many places.
To Anuvaavi Subramanian Temple
Shiva Vishnu Temple
Nungambakkam High road
German Cultural Centre
Landmark …
Where ever I go, Sai comes with me. What ever I do, Sai has seen me doing it. I can’t hide anything from my Sai for he lives in myself.
If Someone asks why I write so much about my personal life publicly,this could be the answer. I can hide what i am from this world but not from my Sai. I express things honestly making sure no one is hurt.
Every day we go to so many places. We speak so many things. At times, We even speak bad of others or misbehave. We don’t mind telling lies. Its a fast world and we adopt to do things as we wish. We think Its not a big sin.
Trust me. Every Lie you say is registered.
Every little bad deed you do is registered.
Every single good deed you do is also registered.
Its all known to Sai.
Sai keeps watching you but he never reacts and sits calmly when you do good or bad. Sai lets the “Law of Karma” work on you.
You are your own Guru:
Once a devotee comes to Dwarakamai and asked saibaba
” Can you be my Guru?”
Sai replied him “You don’t need a Guru. One should watch himself – His thoughts and action. That’s enough. What you Sow. You reap”
Today i suffer because I would have done something bad to some women in my previous birth.
There’s no point in complaining Saibaba is not helping me. I am suffering for my bad deeds in some birth. We all take birth for this Redeeming of our sins. I keep paying back for what i did in past. I am indebted. Once my debt is over, Sai will bless me with good happenings in my life.
This is how I understand my life.
This is how “Sai” Works.
Friends,
There are millions of Shirdi Saibaba devotees today around the world. We all say we love Sai but we have our own short comings. Kindly, try to be good always. Think Good and Do good. Always speak good of everyone. Even about people who harmed you. Sai loves it when you are so pure and Innocent.
Go where ever you want, do what ever you wish but remember I am aware of what you are doing – Shirdi Sai Baba
I don’t know why I have tears in eyes when i complete this post.
Sairam
C.Venkatraman
16/4/2013
A request – Feeding Ants are good but also try to do good to human. There are many people struggling for food, clothing and good education. Do little good to these people with what ever you can afford.
