I am Happy, I am Sad – Saibaba please show me a way

Sairam friends,

These days I am Happy. At least because my parents not getting angry with me for not deciding on any girl and they just wish I get married. I feel free now. I smile at times and am honestly Happy. At times we are really happy irrespective of what we get and what we don’t get. We are basically happy.

But suddenly I become Sad and get depressed. May be its my past Karmic deed that am suffering like this. May be I spoilt a girls life or got coursed from couples for separating them or may be I am the biggest sinner of all. May be a serial sinner that I am supposed to do lots of good deeds to the world. I can only do what I can Sai ! Please accept it as my offering and show me a way.

I really wanted to create StarSai as Good positive site baba. Devotees feel StarSai is negative, Boring and what Not…For all the efforts I take is this the name you want me to get? May be I am supposed to accept everything the world says and be calm.

I also feel too depressed today Saibaba. Please take all the devotees to other websites where they write praising you and lots of positive devotees experience and lots of Sai Leela that brings Shradha and Saburi in a reader. I accept I am negative and StarSai is of no use for devotees.

I think world will realize what I try to convey after I die only. They don’t know that simply writing Sai did this, Sai did that will make a person who prays Sai for years to feel sad that Sai is helping others and not him/her. When such people read my experiences, I believe they place themselves in such situation and realize one has to love and believe in Saibaba irrespective of nothing good happening in life as we desire.

How many lives are there where people simply suffer for years? For such people Sai can’t be doing Leela unless they earn so much Punya and life won’t change in a day. Sai also does good for us only when good time comes.

In Durga saptashati there’s a line where it says, When devotees time is good, then Mahalakshmi shines in her life but when devotees has bad time , Lakshmi herself becomes Alakshmi and doesn’t give them prosperity. This is because if we have prosperity during bad time, we get into more sufferings due to cunning people around us.

This is how Gods/Saints work. I write for people who suffer. A Doctor is for someone who is sick and not someone who’s healthy. People who are happy come to StarSai and simply move. Only devotees who are sad mail me and that’s why my articles expresses the moments we must be strongly holding to saibaba when things never seem to happen.

There are miracles happening but not in everyone’s life and it all depends on their karmic deeds. So How can such people hold on to Sai.

Once a devotee came to Saibaba and asked Sai to help him.

Baba replied , You sow Margosa and come to me. Now, whats the use.

It means, That man has commited a mistake and then came to Sai for help.If you sow Margosa only that will grow..If you sow seed of good, good tree will grow or else only bad tree.

So Saibaba also looks at one’s own karmic deeds and present lives punya earned to do leela. That doesn’t mean such devotees are not cared by saibaba. Sai loves them too and we must only help them hold on to saibaba firmly.

I do understand writing about the powers of Saibaba is essential and I do it very subtly. This can be found in every article but may be I didn’t  express it properly. Its OK Baba…

To devotees,

Accept my apologies and am sorry for not making you happy and inspiring you.

All of you people go to other good places where they speak very positively about saibaba . Sai bless these good people.

I am bad and wrong for the world no matter what I do.

Anyway,

The past few days My Father wanted me to worship Kala Bhairava during Astami. Since today is Ashtami, Shall post photo of Bharava in kathmandu. Bhariava looks very fierce in this Temple but he is Lord who protects us.

About Kala Bhairava:

Bhairava (Sanskrit: भैरव, (“Terrible” or “Frightful”,), sometimes known as Kaala Bhairava, Kal Bhairab, Annadhaani Bhairava (In Karnataka)( ಭೈರವ) Bhairo or Bhairon or Bhairadya or Bheruji (In Rajasthan), Kaal Bhairava, Kaala Bhairavar (கால பைரவர்) or Vairavar (In Tamil), is the fierce manifestation of Lord Shiva associated with annihilation. He is one of the most important deities of Rajasthan, Tamil Nadu and Nepal who originated in Hindu mythology

His temples or shrines are present within or near most Jyotirlinga temples, the sacred twelve shrines dedicated to Shiva across India, including Kashi Vishwanath Temple, Varanasi and the Mahakaleshwar Temple at Ujjain, where at the Kal Bhairav Temple, he is worshipped by the Kapalika and Aghori sects of Shaivism, here one can also find the Patal Bhairav and Vikrant Bahirav shrines.

Kaal Bhairava temples can also be found around Shakti Peethas, as it is said Shiva allocated the job of guarding each of 52 Shakti Peethas to one Bhairava. As such it is said there are 52 forms of Bhairava, which are in fact considered as manifestation of Shiva himself.

Sairam

Venkat

Edit:

A day after I wrote this article Sai inspired me to collect stories and experiences from Sai devotees about How Saibaba blessed them with happiness in life. Does it sound positive? ….This is little I could do for Sai children baba.

How did Shirdi Sai Baba bring happiness in your life?

Hope you share how Sai helped you in various situations in your life there even if its small Incident !

Sometimes little things can bring happiness in our life

Sairam