Blessings of Lord Murugan during Karthigai festival which came on a full moon day

Sairam friends,

The past two-three days am feel guilty as I realized am not able to shut my mouth and keep quiet at work. I keep teasing someone or making fun always. Sometimes, If I am calm thinking “Today, I must never make fun and shut my mouth’ my friends ask me why I am sad and what happened to me?. So it seems, I am supposed to keep talking something stupid. There are so many people who are really working hard and I honestly think I must control at times and be quiet.

Baba, please make me remain calm at least few minutes a day !

I am not in good mood to write and feel really tired now. My hands are paining and am too depressed to handle life any more friends. I can’t write you patiently but since am actively posting what I did on each Festival, I wish to write what Sai made me do on Birthday of Lord Murugan – Karthigai.

Now a days my Father learned to make beautiful garlands by himself. I kept looking at how patiently , he inserts the flowers one by one in the needle and makes garland for Amman in the Ganesha temple. I woke up with a strange dream in which I saw my friends at work. One of my friend is resigning by end of this month and I feel sad about it because I don’t get close to anyone easily and if I do, I miss their presence.

Now a days, I have nothing to do on Sunday. Don’t like to go temple also as I feel that am wasting my time which can be used productively. I want to do something creative baba.

After many days, I wanted to use my Editing software and worked on something I really liked. I tried to make a work based on list of Most powerful women in past century. Its a king of work which helps me learn about women who achieved a lot in their life irrespective of various hurdles. I listened to my favorite songs

“She’s always a women to me by Billy joel,

Ronan keating’s ‘You say it best, when you say nothing at all”

“Do you believe in Life after Love” by Cher.

Oh my God. How much I love Cher’s video in that Song. I admired how they filmed it and even today when I look at it, it rocks !

I was trying to find a good sound track to do some editing work.

Yesturday, I was surprised as My sister’s called up from U.S and her child Katya was asking her how to Spell “Venkat” and she told her….Its V…E…N…K…A…T…In few minutes, My sister sent me beautiful painting from Katya she made for my birthday on November 4th.

Now a days, Katya speaks in a accent that I really can’t follow. I keep asking my sister about what she’s telling.

It was evening when Amma told me, Its my responsibility to keep Kumkum to all the lamps and she will make wicks for it. I got irritated with her but felt she has no one to help and sat down in my pooja place. I applied kumkum to all the lamps, placed the wicks listening to Skandha Sashti Kavasam and then some Murugan Songs.

Then, I asked Amma to light lamps. She could not bend down and sit. So she kept one plate full of lamps on table and lit lamps. Then we did Pooja, Aarti etc. My Father already took the Payasam Amma made to distribute to devotees in Temple. So myself and my Mom kept the lamps around the house, on Top and also in our small Sai temple.

My father kept asking me to go to Colony Siddhi Vinayaka temple and take pictures of Goddess as the Garland he made is beautiful to see. I got irritated with him and said I am getting late to go to Saibaba temple. Then I cooled down and went to Colony Ganesha temple.  I took few pictures there and I loved Cute Mouse of Ganesha surrounded by lamps…

Then, I went to Shirdi Saibaba temple in my hometown and felt really blissful to see my friends and few devotees had arranged many lamps in the form of “Shiv Ling”. I went into Dwarakamai, lit 3 lamps as usual and told Saibaba to do good to me. I spoke to Sai about my friend and asked him if he ever has any plans for me.

I was really upset but felt happy to see Lamps.

I wonder if I really prayed properly because my mind was engaged in taking photos. I did remember Sai and Lord Murugan but honestly when we are really devoted, we must not focus on taking pictures.

Blessings of Lord Murugan during Karthigai festival which came on a full moon day

I wonder what’s so special about this day. It is really auspicious to light so many lamps but deep in my heart, I am really worried about what’s going to happen. I just feel its truly a blessing as this Karthigai festival, auspicious for Lord Murugan devotees came on a full moon day. I call the full moon as Abirami – The Mother Goddess and bow to her looking at the sky.

I was in temple until Aarti got over and came back home. I showed the pictures to my parents and they felt happy to see.

My Mom was feeling tired and I was also very depressed about my life. I really don’t have enough strength to write in StarSai.

I wanna hug a Sai book and watch a scary Movie and sleep…he he…this is only way I found to forget my pains and move on with life but seems Sai doesn’t want me to watch a Scary movie. So he made me write you irrespective of how tired I am.

I believe Shirdi Saibaba and Lord Murugan will show me a way

My neck is paining, my hands are paining ..am too tired but Sai wants me to write now itself because morning there might be power cut when I wake up..

I did what I promised to Sai. I will write about every festival all through the year and this is what this ordinary Sai’s little servant did on auspicious Karthigai.

I love Murugan

Venkat

Always in the holy feet of Shirdi Saibaba