Sairam friends,
OK. Let’s get over it. I was into something and tried to argue, fight and finally pleaded to Sai to answer me for what ever happened the past few days. I agree. I induced it. Its completely my mistake. I am not going to say that Saibaba encouraged me with his dreams. I won’t say that anymore because he knows his words na? Then, he must tell me what he did to me. Why should I again and again ask him why he showed me such dreams? I am not asking for much. All I need is some “Meaning” to my life.
Let’s say someone needs this dedication of Sai Satcharita at this point of time in their life, I will be satisfied. It makes sense. May be, all this happened for making me offer a prayer. That will satisfy me to an extent if not completely. But Sai, you completely ignored my request to clarify me. Its going to take too long for me to come out of this depression. Once in a while, I try to be happy. But I don’t know why I should be talking to everyone at work anymore? Just because I can’t be calm? I am really bored of my life.
In between all this episode, something really silly happened. On October 2nd, I had this dream “I am selling rainbows”
After that, the dream continued as if I am in Helicopter and I saw the cinematographer whom I assisted is shooting a lead girl in a baby pink wedding dress. It was a scenic place. I kept searching for the old song with similar dress but could not find the right one.
On Monday night, I was giving prasad in Saibaba temple Dwarakamai when a little boy ran with a toy Helicopter in his palm. I was curious and looked at the parking space. A man just parked his bike when his mobile had a ring tone of an old Tamil song. I immediately can guess the song and searched my mobile. Surprisingly, I found the right song. I was really a happy moment since the song too has the word “Rainbow” in the first line.
I always listen and hum Hindi and English songs but for first time in several years, I keep telling my friends “Oh ..this lyrics is so beautiful and torchure them to listen to this Tamil song”.
I played it in bike while going to office with my friend. I told him the movie is little funny to watch now a days but its truly a memorable song. One of this guy always get irritated with me for playing Hindi song in my car while going to Saibaba temple every Thursday afternoon. Today, I played this song in my mobile. At night, I again went with my other friends to Saibaba temple and they pleaded me not to play this song again as they are fed up with it. I am not revealing this song now. Let it be a secret because it will increase my problem. Already I am suffering.
My friend said that movie is in Telugu also featuring Nagarjuna. Seems Nagarjuna is still acting as a Hero and he’s becoming younger day by day..he he… Anyway…I don’t know why I must be so excited for this song but basically what ever I see in a dream is very important for me.
I had this wonderful Sai friend Geeta from Andhra. I have even met her in Shirdi once. Her brother passed away in an accident which she could not bear. Her parents started ignoring Sai as he could not save their son. Sometimes, I am really pained by such incidents in the life of my close Sai friends. I tried to convince Geeta so much that Sai still loves her family. Now, I just have the memory of the Telugu songs she sings and sends me occasionally. I hope she’s married now.
These are all my Sai children. They can forget me but I remember them someday.
I thought Sai will clarify me if I do all this but he seems not to bother me. What I got is several mails with so much love and care on me.Podhum Baba. I did a mistake and I am suffering. You are not bearing the pain but sending cheer girls from all corner of the world to console me..he he.
Yen maanatha vaagitela? You be happy. You have to be dear Sai. What’s the use of all these friends through whom you say that You care for me? But thanks a lot. How can I forget the advice and personal care taken on me by Madhusmita, Priya, Kavitha, Geetanjali didi, Padmini aunt and Geetha.
Thanks for telling me that I am not a big fraud….he he…
And someone living 9000 miles away from me….Thashi! You have been an unique friend just like your name. You take care of me often to make sure I don’t keep thinking the same story and get into more problems. I wish you become an amazing physician and create an affordable healthcare revolution in the U.S.
I wish to have a change. I wish to go Shirdi but as of now there’s no chance.So must atleast get ticket to Tirupati. I don’t know if everyone who goes to Venkateswara experiences his greatness. He melts for devotion.
I am really pained now. I am going on a flash back now.
Once, they wanted me and my friend to go to Chennai Airport and collect the film reel which has been sent from Mumbai. I think we reached Airport by 8.30 in the morning. The Jet Airways staff said only my Editor must come personally to collect it but he finally gave it.I think we took it to the lab for some special effects to be done in a song.
How can I forget this beautiful movie. Taught me so much about the art of editing. Cutting the way it must be done. It rocks!
I am listening to a song from this film – Dil Chahta Hai.
How can I forget Preity Zinta and Aamir too looks young!
Jaane Kyon Log Pyar Karte Hain
Jaane Kyon Log Pyaar Karte Hain
Jaane Kyon Woh Kisi Pe Marte Hain
Jaane Kyon Jaane Kyon ?
Pyaar Mein Sochiye To Bas Gham Hai
Pyar Mein Jo Sitam Bhi Ho Kam Hai
Pyar Mein Sar Jookana Padta Hai
Dard Mein Muskurana Padta Hai
Zaher Kyon Zindagi Mein Bharte Hain ?
Pyar Bin Jeene Mein Rakha Kya Hai
Pyar Jisko Nahin Woh Tanha Hai
Pyar Sau Rang Le Ke Aata Hai
Pyar Hi Zindagi Sajaata Hai
Log Chup Chup Ke Pyaar Karte Hain
Jaane Kyoun Saaf Kehte Darte Hai ?
Jaane Kyon Jaane Kyon
Roughly translated as…
Wonder why people fall in love
I wonder why people die for someone they love
Wonder why , wonder why ?
Think about it , love has but sorrows ,
In love every effort is never enough
Even in pain you have to smile
In love one has to bow one’s head
Why add poison into Your own life?
And I love the below lines…
Without love what else is there in life ?
The one who has no love is lonely
love brings a hundred colors when it comes
Love decorates life
People fall in love secretively
Wonder why they are scared to say it outright ? ( Why they’re afraid to speak their hearts)
Wonder why , wonder why ?
How much I love this song Sai. In the film school, I used to give this movie clippings to students and ask them to edit for some other song. And there’s the reason I wrote this song. There’s a Helicopter scene shot in Australia in this song.
Think I am able to forget the episode as I listen to this song now.
Tonight, I went to Saibaba temple with my friends. I read one chapter from Sai Satcharita. Later, told them that I am going to sing “Haridwar Mathura Kaashi” bhajan. They agreed and listened to me.They said that I sing OK OK…Average. They asked if I sing in Nagasai Mandir too. I said, I will never even imagine to sing there as everyone knows me there. In the temple near office, none can identify me..he he..
I wish that I die now as I sleep and never wake up again. If you want me to wake up, please come in dream and tell me something clearly Sai. Atleast give a meaning to what ever happened. I must be satisfied that I did something good. Can’t you even do this to me?
Tata
Venkat
Hey! I wanna divert my mind. I like the way Shuba Nabar speaks on Stage on Data Science. Lots of excitement there!
