My life has always been like a war

Sairam friends,

Don’t ask me why I trust and live by Sai’s dreams? What ever my Sai says happens and he makes sure I don’t get too upset about it. When I was working on the corporate film for where I work, things were very smooth. I have never done any creative project without some an issue. That’s the nature of “ART’. You can’t create something without facing some difficulties.

On Sunday morning, I had a dream in which I heared the name of a Tamil Movie. I woke up and saw a 3 minute clipping from the movie and realized Sai warns that I must not be adamant about the work I do and might have to compromise a little. Sai wanted me to accept what ever people say and satisfy them.

I was surprised as nothing happened until yesterday when one of this Mam initially said her team isn’t portrayed properly. So I shot it. Then, She gathered everyone around me and said “He has only portrayed his friends creatively and not others’. I denied it because honestly it wasn’t an easy task for me to go and shoot people whom I don’t know personally. I told her, I don’t feel comfortable to film girls and even guys in other team as they don’t understand what I am trying to work on. I even told her, there are people who are photogenic but I did not go near them since its hard to shoot people who are not my friends.

She kept on arguing in the name of making fun of me. I was suggested to shoot some more footage again to avoid showing same faces repeatedly. I told them that people don’t understand I need so much footage to actually do a good work and hence its not decent to keep on shooting. Anyway, I have another project planned in couple of weeks in which I wanted people to speak in the film. So let me shoot again for that.

I woke up early to do a Sun rise shot. Let’s see how it comes as its already cloudy today.

My friend took me to Saibaba temple. I claimed up the terrace and offered garland. I was thinking that my life has always been like a war. No matter what I do with heart and soul, I had to face obstacles, misunderstandings, hinderances and fight for it. I had always been defeated in every war I faced be it my personal life or in what I do to earn my living.

Sometimes, I wish that I had never left filmmaking. But in that case I would have never served Saibaba.

I keep on saying in StarSai that I serve him. Last night, I asked Baba “Am I really serving you or simply showing off?”

I don’t do much work in temple these days. My friends are cleaning the Dhuni and filtering Udi and I join them only when I feel like. What I do in StarSai isn’t that great. I must do something that touches lives of millions of people. This has always been in my mind.

I used Pirates of the Caribbean theme music for the teaser I am working on. My friends suggested me to change the sound track. That’s when I saw Lord Murugan in dream. I believe Murugan is a God of War and felt its better to retain the same music because if you keenly watch, most of our life has a war to fight

It could be winning someone’s heart

It could be winning a client in business

It could be doing something that brings peace and harmony in your life.

Yesterday, I received many mails from Sai devotees. Some asks for blessing of Sai for a baby. Some wants to marry the one they love and some desperately are seeking a job. Remember Sai deeply and keep your confidence high. Sai will take care of your needs.