My Sai Baba is the best

Sairam friends,

I am writing to you all after almost 6 days. My Father’s surgery went well and irrespective of the fact that the 5 days in Hospital was literally painful for my Father, I know Sai was with us. There were few times when my Father could not bear pain when Sai came for rescue. My uncles and aunt also helped us a lot. I shall write about the hospital episode later. I just told this to Baba “Cure my Father completely and I take it that you have already cured him completely”.

What ever the Doctors say is based on reality but the power of my Guru and his assurance – His words are million times more true than reality itself. Sai’s assurances and protection is something I have experienced deeply. Problems and difficulties happens in life but belief on Guru is the most powerful of all. I just know him truly, madly and deeply. SAI works in his own mysterious ways.

Today being Ram Navami, I went to Saibaba temple at night after work. I was there few minutes. Obviously, I was restless and going here and there. I distributed prasad after the Shej aarti standing in Dwarakamai. I sweat a lot these days and I know its very abnormal as if I bath. I am not bothered about it but when I hold Sai’s prasad and expect devotees to take it, I feel some might not feel hygienic when I sweat like this. I try to hold the prasad little further in palm making sure the drops doesn’t fall from my face.

Anyway, Most of the devotees know me and hence its OK no matter now ugly or dirty I look. Ha ha…

What I regret this Ram Navami is I missed to chant holy name of Sai and Lord Rama. I did chant few minutes but not impressed with my devotion.

My mind was wavering. I went to work after almost a week and tried to be happy but some thoughts keep haunting me. I wanted to set myself free of all fear in life and simply remember Sai and Sai alone. Let there be no worries and fear of none.

I just depend on Sai and he is taking care of me.

What ever is happening the past few days makes me realize Sai just wants me to shed off my ego. I am basically not going to gain anything with the image I have in society be it at work or in personal life. Sai wants to put me down purposely and get insulted. Not because he wanted me to feel bad but since it makes me lead the life that suits me.

Most of us fail in life since we are trying to play a role that doesn’t suit us.

I know Sai is making me suffer, struggle and face all these difficulties to mold and shape me for the life that is fit for me.

My Sai is the best.

Believe in him.

He might put you down at times but only to lift you when you have enough experience.

Om Sai Ram

Venkat