Sairam friends,
These days, my Mom is not feeling well. She’s become too weak which upsets me. The other day, I found a small diary on which I wrote my name Venkatraman and the date 6.2.88 when I was a kid.
I showed it to my Mom and told her “I would have wrote it happily assuming my life will be good.”
Saibaba has done a lot to me but Sai can do only so much and wants us to have patience.
Sai’s ways are unique and hard to understand why he wants so much time for some good things to happen in our life.
I have never even guesses my life will be so painful before few years. May be, I am thousand times better because I am with Sai. I alone know what Sai does to me every single day and night. Saints heart melts like wax for their children. I know Baba has taken care of me over these years of hardships.
Now that I have a job, I am OK with it but I feel really scared that I did not do what Sai kept saying in my dream since 2015. It’s surprised how Saibaba actually made me here the following in dream
“Your life will be good if you do Phd”
3 years have gone by and I am not at all serious about it. This scares me a lot. So my life won’t be good if I don’t go Phd?
So is my life going to be worse than the current situation?
I am scared and worried to core.
My life has been bunch of mistakes.
Wish Sai shows me a way
Baba, please heal my Mom
Venkat
If Sai has told you that, you should do it. Trust in him and go for a part-time Ph.D. or some other option that is okay for you. Else, you will always be curious whether or not life will be good after Ph.D.
Besides, having one more degree with a permanent DR. before your name can never be bad.
Om Sai Ram.
Sairam Venkat. I pray to Sai your mom feels
better. Venkat, thank you. When I get really scared in life I always come back to read your blog. My life is painful too, but although you can’t see it or be aware of it you do Lord Sai a great service. Your blog comforts and reminds us. Sai Baba asks us for remembrance. I try to keep Sai in my mind at all times, but I think you are one of the best Sai devotees that are alive. Don’t be scared, Venkat. Sai will care for your mom.
Also, Venkat, there is a Marathi novel on Sai called “A Mission Divine” in English. It was originally written in Marathi, maybe in the late 1980s or roundabouts. I hope you read it.
Take care! Also I never forget you. I am always thankful to you for what you published about me and my Cat Carito in 2016.
You may not hear from me from long periods of time but I feel you’ll always be someone I respect and consider member of the millions-strong family of Sai devotees.
-A