Pain

Sairam friends,

Day before yesterday after writing the article about Karthigai festival, I wanted to watch a Movie. I tried to watch but felt tired and went to sleep. Suddenly, I had pain originating in my left hand from shoulder to mid and the pain gradually increased. In few minutes, I was having unbearable pain. I came to my room as I don’t want to disturb my parents. I tried to sleep but could really when am in pain, its really not possible to sleep.

My Mom woke up and tried to help me doing all things. She was worried as I worked a lot at home and may be it could be the reason for pain. I honestly din’t do much and shocked for such pain.

I had tablets and then also the pain din’t subside. I applied Udi in my palm and drank udi water praying Sai to heal me. I found a Sai Satcharitra book near me and opened a page to see what Sai says. Surprisingly, it came to the page which read “God will Cure”. I told my Amma, Baba is telling only God can cure this.

I felt little upset as I hurt my friend. Sai doesn’t want me to hurt any girl. So I messaged her to forgive me and pray for me. By this time it was 3 o clock. After an hour, the pain subsided and I slept.

When ever I get such pain, I used to think Saibaba wants me to do something for devotees who are in pain. I wondered why such pain came when Sai is there with me. May be Sai wants me to go through the pain so that I will know how much people are suffering in health issues. When we are in good health, we never know the value of being in peace.

My Mom said Body is like a Temple and I never take care of myself. I wanted to learn Yoga and start to do Meditation but I don’t want to learn from any one. I want to learn by myself.

I went to work and asked my friends what could be the reason for such pain. One of my friend hit me playfully on Friday and I said, it could be a reason…he he…

When I went to Saibaba temple at night, a uncle was telling the priest in Dwarakamai about how he does Yoga and meditation. I asked him about it and he taught me what to do. I felt happy Sai and wanted to try it. He asked me to meditate for 20 minutes every morning.

I created a Meditation for Sai devotees years back but I myself do it rarely – StarSai Dhyana

Actually, I don’t want devotees to follow any Guru for learning meditation and simply learn to do it in their own way. Just close your eyes, remembering your favorite God,Goddess or Sai and keep doing Chanting of their holy name. A 5 to 10 minute of silent simple meditation is worthy than applying various techniques and being proud of what you do.

During Baba’s life time, there’s an incident of Upasni Baba learning to do Pranayama and he only had negative effects. Finally he came to saibaba and Sai healed him.

I wanted to watch a movie of Adi Sankara in Tamil. My Mom asked me to sleep soon and not to sit in front of computer. So I slept saying, “Today, I want to sleep peacefully”. I hugged Shirdi Saibaba’s book and payed Sai to guide me in dream.

I had a dream in which I saw the priest of Saibaba temple Chandru and Kamal. Chandru told me something which really shocked and upset me.

I woke up and asked Saibaba why he doing this to me?

There’s also a good message in the dream and I felt Sai will only do what’s good for me.

Now I am starting to work.

Sai bless you

Venkat

Always in the holy feet of Shirdi Saibaba.