Sairam friends,
I was little upset yesterday as couple of my friends showed me 2-3 corporate films made by other companies. It was so local and I don’t wanna do such work. I kept telling “I won’t do such local work. I must do classic work” . Everyone asked me “What will you do. Yours too will be ordinary like this only.”
I must have not started such work and let it be done by some external vendor. Anyway, the only benefit in taking Camera to work almost everyday is that I take some footage where ever I go which I can use for some videos. I am learning something everyday. Let’s see how it goes. Only Sai has to show me a way.
Some years back, I used to be very possessive about my Camera. Now a days, I let everyone use it. I took the Violet flower photo last evening while it was raining. Don’t like the focus and composition though. I ran away as it was raining.
Our way of perceiving Sai Baba is not how Sai actually is
The past 3 month, Sai used to guide me through dreams with songs or other very strange ways. My only concern is its hard for to prove anyone how my Sai works. How can I tell people Sai can use dreams so creatively to convey a message? Some of you are hurt as Sai doesn’t bless you with dreams. You don’t have to because these experiences confuses you more. When it comes to me, I have been benefitted a lot through Sai dreams. Only in one issue, I could not understand it clearly.
Its not about dreams. Basically, All of you see Saibaba beautifully decored in temple and keep him look clean, cheerful and beautiful at home too. The problem is we don’t ever imagine if this is how Sai used to look and live during his lifetime in Shirdi?
Honestly not.
Sai Baba’s ways were very peculiar.
He used to be moody and never talk to anyone at times. He used to keep his face sad for few days. How can a Saint be happy when his children are sad? But on other occasions, Sai used to be cheerful. Sai even sings and dances for to make his devotees happy.
Many people used to tell this to me
“You worship Saibaba and why are you like this?”
Like what?
Dear! Please first close your eyes and imagine how Sai would have lived. You think he was behaving very decent and clean? Saints are completely different. Saibaba used to shout and scream at times for reasons none could find out. At times, he used to take out his intestine and dry it. Sometimes, he never takes bath for more than 3 days. He used to silently sit in the corner of Dwarakamai.
On various occasions, Sai would wake up at night in Dwarakamai and speak to God for his devotees welfare. He is God Incarnate but he considers himself as servant of God.
Saibaba’s mannerisms must have been very different from the one we assume it to be. Imagine, how it would have been when Sai caught someone’s neck while he is re-constructing Dwarakamai? Ha ha..Sai used to get upset when ever people do something beyond their ability and ask them “Why you do all this for me? I am a poor fakir?”
When ever people tell “Stop believing in such dreams and be practical, I keep calm”.
I am not impractical but my Guru must have reasons for confusing me.
My Guru has all rights to make me feel ashamed or get hurt or do all stupid things in life. If I can’t even give this rights to my Sai, then its not worth calling myself as a Sai devotee. I do get angry on Sai but the way Sai guides me almost every single day is surprising.
I will never be able to prove what I am going through and what Sai is doing to me.
Because the world is behind reality and I am behind Sai.
I live in my sweet, Sai’s world.
I live right in the world Sai created for me.
I don’t have to prove.
I just love Sai
Truly, Madly and Deeply
Venkat
