Sairam friends,
I am a bit depressed these days though I worry a lot only after I reach home. When I am out, I try to be happy. One of those things which I realized these days is Sai tried his best to help me but I don’t deserve to be blessed with his gift. Sai expects a devotee to be someone truly good and hardworking that he/she deserves his gift. May be I don’t deserve much for Sai to give.
I have few plans for StarSai which I wish to bring to life. One is a career website to motivate people when they feel low due to problems at work or without a job etc.
Secondly, Its been long since I have been planning a project which am not able to do. We live in a virtual artificial world and at times addicted to few habits. I wish to create a site which helps one to realize there’s a beautiful world out there which can give them better experiences and make their life more meaningful.
A website certainly can’t do much but its just a spark which might work for few.
I am not able to work on these projects due to some hurdles. If Sai wills, he will show me a way.
My Father said he wants someone speaking about greatness of Lord Shiva to play in Ganesha temple during Shiva Rathri. So I downloaded it and wrote this.
I don’t have much to say today and I don’t want to write about my dreams today. I know you will get bored…he he.
Tata
Venkat
I really hope that ur ideas come to life as soon as possible. Bcoz its definitely required in todays world.
AumSai
Dear Venkat,
Hope you are feeling better now.
Your words above made respond. I’m not sure why you think you are not deserving of Baba’s love? Everyone is. He never said I love only the best and pure. Once you are under his umbrella, you are his.
If Baba gives you something, it is only b’cos he thinks you need it at the moment and are deserving of it.
Accept what he gives you pure joy, gratitude and humility. Be appreciative of his love and be generous in sharing them with others who may also benefit from it . I think you are already doing it through your work at this website 🙂
And coming to your plans for website, if they are not materializing at the moment, it is only b’cos time is not ripe for it. Keep working on it but don’t get depressed over it. I was just looking on the internet to see what was baba’s role in indian independence and I read somewhere that he indicated that time was not ripe for it at that time and it will come soon. He was alive and witness to the struggle Indians were going thru at that time and yet this is what he had to say. So have patience, and be positive.
A sad heart can never reach god, b’cos sadness clouds our judgement. Always think of him and be happy. Don’t worry about what you deserve and what you don’t. Always do the right thing and pray to baba to guide you on the right path. Never dwell on your past, it is over. Use it to make your present and future better.
Love,
Your Sister.