Sairam friends,
After many days, on Friday morning, I saw this girl at work in dream. It was just for 2-3 seconds before I woke up. I saw her face which was curious. It wasn’t a dream in deep sleep. I almost woke up but felt like I saw her face.
I completely stopped thinking of this girl as I feel guilty for bothering her but wondered why I should see her in dream?
This time, when I saw her, I felt she’s good in her own way and I should not disrespect her just because she did not try to understand what I was going through for more than 2 years.
She doesn’t have to because its between Sai and me.
On Saturday morning, I had another dream.
It was like I see a very beautiful antique car but its shining. Many people are photographing the car. I see one of this guy who works in Mumbai (I know him well) tries to take selfie of himself with the car holding a DSLR camera. I tell him, no one takes a selfie with DSLR.
I see this girl and myself standing in first floor of a building and looking down at this car. Many people are photographing the car as its antique but also looks huge.
I could see this girl talking to me about something. She was very kind in the way she talked. When I was in the dream, I was answering her back.
I was in deep sleep while I had this dream.
I woke up and initially, I felt that there wasn’t any dream. Later, I tried to remember this dream.
Both these dreams about this girl was like Sai is telling me she’s good in her own way and I should respect her irrespective of how she treats me.
I never know her and what she’s upto. Her journey might have ups and downs too. I was curious on why should I see a stranger in dream for couple of years. Now, I feel happy as Sai choose to show this girl in dream because she has been kind to me.
She minded her life and never once spoke ill of me.
I realized this because in the recent past, I found how people enjoy speaking ill of others or making stories. If Sai had showed any other girl in dream, they might have exaggerated it.
2 years back, when I was irritated some people were speaking ill of me, I was worried. One of this guy was advicing me that its because of the way I behave.
I recently understood that some people were speaking ill of this guy too. I was happy…he he ..
“Enna Phychic nu sonela…Venum da unaku” kind of feeling.
I hope he understands that anyone can be a victim for being themselves.
So basically, its not about me and how I behave. Its about the culture existing in the place I work.
Culture is invisible and even a single low life can ruin culture of the environment we work if they are encouraged to do so.
Saibaba took care of me to survive in this place. The best part was a dream I had when I was in the U.S
It was like, Sai showed me a girl telling others in her team that I am dropping a girl in car as if it’s wrong. Sai showed me who’s doing this silly low life stuff.
I immidiately woke up and analyzed the dream. For almost a year, I was dropping a girl who’s very decent. I see her near her Son’s school waiting for bus and pick her up.
After I returned from the U.S, I stopped dropping her. I feel bad about it but India works like this. This is because Sai clearly showed me a dream that it will only eventually lead to people speaking about it in a wrong way.
I was thousands of kilometers away from Coimbatore. How and why did Sai showed me such a dream? Now can you understand why I trust Sai’s words in dream?
I am certainly not one of those guys from whom you can hide anything. I have a poor fakir of Shirdi who tells me what’s happening around. He works for me. My Sai works for me and I am proud of that.
When Sai did all this to me, I just can’t understand why he keeps showing a girl at work in dream. Its going to be 2 and half years and I still did not get answer.
The last 2 dreams made me feel this girl is really beautiful at heart and I shouldn’t disrespect her.
Thankfully, Sai showed me dream of this girl who took my mails very lightly and moved on.
Other girls might have created a scene.
She’s good and I never know her journey.
We basically hate others for we don’t know their life, their dreams, their aspirations and their journey.
Sai has always taught me to be kind and respect people whom I have come across. This girl is very special to me for Sai keeps showing her in dream.
The only problem is that the dream either has Audio track or Video track. Either I hear few words or I see her visual.
The dream on Saturday morning was so vivid but I don’t know what she’s talking to me. I tried hard to recollect but I can’t remember a single word.
Being an editor myself, I told Sai that he should package his dreams with both audio and video track. This way, I can get some clarity.
All this is for my own clarity. I have no intention to communicate with her any longer. I get nervous even if I come across her. Its hurting me to core because my Sai let me down. I am fed up with my life already.
As I get old, all that I did sounds humorous to me. Sometimes, I laugh at myself thinking who on Earth would start liking a girl based on Sai’s dreams. Its me..Its me!
Only I can do it.
Well, Life changes.
These days, My Mom often gives some advice to me as if its the last thing she says to me.
All I want in life is my Ma and Pa. I don’t know to live without them. Everything else is just some strange experience Sai gave me.
I disobeyed Sai by writing about this girl. I am not sure if its right to write about a girl who’s complete stranger to me.
The irony is that I am surprised why Sai shows her in dream even now. Don’t he find another girl? This makes me think she’s so good than so many other girls I had come across in life.
Hey its holiday season and I wish to show you how they have decorated the house opposite to my Sister’s home…
So what’s happening in my life. There’s another tooth on which am undergoing root canal. Its painful.
Believe me, root canal is like 2-3 people standing around you and doing car wash inside your mouth.
So better brush every night before you sleep. That’s the moral of this long article. He he…
The other day, one of this girl asked me
“Venkat. Do you like music? Do you listen to songs?”
Oh. So a person who goes to Saibaba temple everyday should be saintly? I am human and I love music too. I love song editing too.
Here’s one of the song I like to post. I love the lyrics.
Too Good At Goodbyes by Sofia Karlberg
You must think that I’m stupid
You must think that I’m a fool
You must think that I’m new to this
But I have seen this all before
I’m never gonna let you close to me
Even though you mean the most to me
‘Cause every time I open up, it hurts
So I’m never gonna get too close to you
Even when I mean the most to you
In case you go and leave me in the dirt[Pre-Chorus]
And every time you hurt me, the less that I cry
And every time you leave me, the quicker these tears dry
And every time you walk out, the less I love you
Baby, we don’t stand a chance, it’s sad but it’s true
[Chorus]
I’m way too good at goodbyes
Like it?
Tata..I going to sleep. Yet another day I ask Sai for clarity. I deserve some clarity for all this patience Sai.
Edit – I woke up and did not had any good dream. My Mom isn’t well. That makes me think if I should even ask Sai for clarity in such issues. Probably, all this happened for reasons I would never be able to find.
Venkat
