Sai Baba…Wish that I never get angry and I must learn to speak soft and sweet

Sairam friends,

The past 2-3 weeks, I occasionally have stomach ache and my parents keep asking me to go to Doctor. I did go but got bored to visit the Doctor again. My Mom kept asking me why I did not visit the Doctor again within 3 days as he requested. I got really irritated and shouted at her. Finally, today, we went shopping and also to the Doctors place. On the way, I was upset because of the arguments. A bus was moving and I just stopped the car. It scratched the front part of my car. I kept silent and did not even felt like going to the Driver and shouting at him. I have very soft corner for people who drive public transport vehicles and other ordinary Indians as I believe they are hard working people. So I don’t feel like shouting at them.

Sai punished me for driving fast during my Madurai trip. Probably, Sai wants to me to calm down and not to show the frustration I have in life on driving. So its good my car got spoilt. Let me drive without fixing it for a while. Let people ask about it and let me answer. Only then, I will be careful in future.

I shouted at my Mom saying she only kept arguing with me. I felt bad for my behaviour now a days. I get frustrated very quickly when someone tells anything repeatedly to me. I told my parents not make it such a big issue just for a small stomach ache. I was caughing for a single week and now I am not allowed to bath at night. I shouted at them that I too much have gone to America like my Sister so that I will live with some freedom.

Did this photography…

By evening, one of my cousin who recently got married came home. I can’t sit in home without going to Saibaba temple after 5 PM during weekend. Its not nice to leave a guest in home and go out and these people don’t like Saibaba as much as I do. So I can’t ask them to join me too. So I managed to be at home speaking to my cousin until 6.45. Later, I told him that this is that max I could do and started to temple.

Its been more than a week since I got my new Camera and only today, I gave it to the priest and asked him to keep under Sai’s holy feet. I felt happy as they did 108 Ashtothram offering flowers over Sai’s feet and it was falling on my Camera which I consider as my baby.

Sai, Wish that I never get angry and I must learn to speak soft and sweet

I am making this video for Sai devotees who get angry easily like me.. Even with friends, I easily get irritated when they say something which isn’t true. People speak as if they know everything and I always shout trying to justify that I am right. I did not say any Sai stories in this video but its just my own personal conversation with Baba. I want you to know that you are not alone and many people really wish to speak kind but they could not control getting angry on others.

One of my Sai friend Shreya said its like Self Confession to Sai

Speak Soft and Sweet Video

Om Sai Ram

This is Venkat for StarSai.com

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Baba…I know you get angry too but you anger is meaningful.

When you get angry, you actually ward off their evil and dangers in life.

But when I get angry, even if I can justify that, its only going to earn me a bad name.

Please help me to change myself.

Please make me accept what ever the world does to me.

After so many years of relationship with you, why am I not able to control my mouth?

Baba…I am jealous of people who speak soft and sweet

There are people who speak very kind and nice

I too was like that some months back

But now a days, I have changed a lot.

I get irritated and annoyed very quickly.

Please

Baba..

Make me be calm as much as I can when people say something which isn’t right

I am shouting because I find people speaking things which they believe is right

So am I not right?

Why are these people irritating me Sai?

Can’t they understand me and stop bothering me?

Why on Earth am I not having patience to with stand others words.

This morning I had a dream as if there’s a huge poster of Saibaba above my seat in my office.

I don’t exactly remember what was written but Its something like “When you trust Sai, you must have immense patience”

Some freshers from Andhra were looking at this poster.

I am not sure why I got such a strange dream but it matches with my behaviour these days.

I am not so bad but when someone speaks as if they alone are right and I am wrong, I immediately start to shout trying to justify myself.

Please. Get me out of this justification business.

If people say something which is not right in my perspective, help me to answer them softly.

Why am I shouting Baba?

Please. Stop me when ever I get angry and shout.

This is a very bad behaviour. I will loose everyone in my life, if I shout like this.

Please calm me down Sai.

I think its my ego that what ever I do is right which is making me justify myself

So help me understand Its OK when people speak ill of me.

Its OK when someone says something repeatedly.

I must learn to speak soft and sweet.

There’s no use being jealous of people who talk very sweet.

Some people talk as if honey is flowing down the river.

And the world will only like such people.

There’s no use if I am good. I must learn to be calm even when people irritate me.

Please. Make me remember you when ever I get angry and frustrated.

Help everyone listening to be blessed with peace and more peace.

Let their life be filled with love, peace and harmony.

I pray Saibaba to bless you with happiness and harmony.

Om Sai Ram

This is Venkat for StarSai.com

That’s it friends

Sai bless you and your family with happiness

Venkat

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