Sai asked me to change myself and my life

Sairam friends,

I have spent the past 3-4 years with a regular job and gradually realized this may not be Saibaba’s eternal gift for me. May be, I have been learning business here and  even when I tried to do something, I only end up contributing nothing. When I see many others who are much younger than me, the only thing I lost is my “Time” and the “Years” I could have done something for myself.

If I had led a normal life like any other guy, I might have not served Shirdi Saibaba and this experience will help me be a good human being all my life.

I reached a stage where what I do in the next 2 years makes my whole life. So what ever plans and dreams I have, I must work for it right now. I am already running out of time.

I am trying to change myself a bit. Trying to eradicate my negatives but we must keep check on it every moment. I am trying to live positive.

I just need Sai’s guidance to tell me what I can do for a living?

The past couple of days, I am reading books about how Men and Women took risk, struggled, believed in themselves and created some of India’s and worlds best Start Ups. For the first time, I sat in corner of Dwarakamai and read books other than Sai Satcharitra.

In my personal experience, what ever good we do or read, Sai gives us guidance through that.

I wish to do Phd in Management because in the worst case, at least I will satisfy my parents that I will survive which worries them a lot. I am not sure what on Earth is there to do research about. This shows my ignorance too. I must have continued to study after my MBA.

Anyway, That’s secondary. Now, my goal is to do something that will bring meaning to my life and make my parents happy.

One of the reason, I do not want to buy a Car irrespective of the fact that my Father and Sister will be helping me get one is that I do not like EMI. Most working professionals did not try to do what they dream to do especially because they are locked in the EMI cage and it takes years for them to come out.

Imagine a House loan would take 10 – 15 years to settle. I wonder how many Entrepreneurs the world lost because of this?

But then, Am I really going to do something? I may not.

I am simply wasting my life doing nothing productive.

Sometimes, I feel why did I dream to be a filmmaker?

and Now, what is the use of dreaming to create something on my own.

None of my dreams come true.

I Love Sai and Sai loves me.

This alone is true.

I hope Sai will guide me and make me take right decision

Why I wrote this article? This is because Sai finally showed in dream and gave me a message but Sai has his own ways. Sai will ask me to do something and just leave me to understand the difficulty in it. But this time, Sai seems to really approve what I plan to do.

Venkat