Sai, i din’t realize it was you who gave me Food,coffee and guidance

Sairam friends

Sometimes i experience a blissful state.Mostly some kind of love for sai emerging from my chest ..i dont know if this is what people call as blissful or if something else…its like we feel the presence of sai in ourself or somewhere near us.

Today while sitting in Nagasai mandhir,  i remembered the tamil saintly women who has seen saibaba in 1917 “sivamma thaayee” and has her samadhi in outskirts of Bangalore .Then i kept chanting sairam sairam sairam and did meditation sitting in corner of varanda where we friends usually sit. I had a vision as if i see a deep well and inside there a shiva lingam.

Then i helped Vijaykumar in cleaning sacred Dhuni.He did most of the work while i was speaking to prem about our life.A poor women came and i asked her if she wants to have Tamarind rice which i kept for Vijay. She took it happily …So Vijay dint had prasad.Vijaykumar was hungry so we had dosa in road side shop. Now lets come to what i wanted to express …

I came home and hurt by few people spreading messages that they saw saibaba in temple or other places in real and claiming sai’s presence can be felt there. Ofcourse sai might show his form but not necessarily . Why should he ? Is he not present in our mother , father, wife and sister, brother. Is sai not present in our dear friends atma and in ourself too ?

Are you going to consider it as a miracle only when you see the old saint with turban on head appear before you ?

We all wish to see Shirdi Saibaba in real human form and consider it as Miracle :

To millions of Shirdi Saibaba devotee, its not enough if they see Saibaba in painting, picture or Sai in the beautiful Shirdi Saibaba statue. We want to see him in real….in human form as how he lived in the village shirdi for over 60 years until his maha samadhi in 1918.

What made me write this article is my own feeling that sai has never ever shown me any consideration to come in real as human form and bless me.  Sometimes i wish , i do meditation sitting in corner of sai mandhir and the sweet fakir appears infront of me and blesses me .

Vow…exciting but lets do a flash back.

Its not easy to get Shirdi Saibaba’s darshan even during his lifetime in shirdi :

The story of the Old Muslim man who had pride that he had been to Mecca was not allowed inside Dwarakamai by sai is well known from the holy book Sri Sai Satcharitra by Hamadpant. You know friends, for many months the old man waited that one day sai will allow him to have his darshan.

I believe after 9-13 months sai realized he waited too long and tested him if he became ego less. Then allowed him to enter the masjid and gave his ashirwad.So even when sai lived in human form it was not easy for one to get his darshan unless he wills.

Samadhi state of saints merges their atman ( soul ) with every atom of universe :

Once while sitting in Dwarakamai Sai has told his close devotee

“You have not seen even one fourth of my powers but soon you will see”

Few weeks after this sai had his Maha samadhi ( october 15th 1918 ) . The devotee understood that sai has said that his atman will merge with every atom of this universe and he will be present in every life as consciousness. When ever we do good deeds and even think Good, Sai verily is present in us .

Secondly for devotees who have this silly desire to see Shirdi Saibaba in real human form, let me confirm , the form is there just for memory , for our satisfaction that such a saint lived but once he took his Mahasamadhi he has become one with all. Where is the form for the Saint who did this below leela

“Once Sai asked Mrs. Tarkad for bakri ..She also went to her hut, made it and when she came out of hut, a Dog was barking. So she gave a bakri to the dog and then proceeded to Dwarakamai. Sai din’t want any food from her and she told him

“Baba, you only said you were hungry and i prepared this tasty food for you”

Sai told Mrs.Tarkad,

“Mother , you gave the food to the Dog who was hungry before coming to me. I am one with the Dog and my hunger is appeased by your kind offering. Ever behave like this”

How beautiful were Sai’s words that it made Mrs. Tarkad to realize the omnipresence of Sainath.

According to me , Myself and crores of Shirdi Saibaba devotees are all ignorant to see the “SAI” roaming in the form of animal, Bird , Mother, Father, husband, wife , friend and relative , Stranger etc.

Lets learn to Sai in our Mother , Father and all good people around us :

Sometimes when i sleep and my father comes inside my room to do pooja, he asks me to continue sleeping very affectionately. I see saibaba there in his words. When ever my Amma asks if i want food or anything to drink , i see sai there. When even my friends tell me “venkatrama , ne nalla irupa , wait pannu” ..”Venkat , you will be fine..wait sai will bless you with good life “…i see sai here too.

When i was studying for my MBA exams sitting in corner of Nagasai mandhir a old man who regularly comes to temple who is 77 came near me and said ” sai will write exam on your behalf ” i know its sai speaking to me…assuring me.

is this not considered as miracle friends ?

Did we fail to see sai in a stranger giving us a quick advice, guidance to take proper decision ?

Example , we may wait for a train in wrong platform and suddenly a stranger might guide us to right place if not which we would have missed the train. Sometimes we might be guided by someone unknown to study a proper course or apply for right job etc.

Did we fail to see Sai in these strangers ?

Well… Sai is every where . Even if our fate took us to a  island where theres no picture or statue of sai ,   if we remember “Sai Sai Sai” whole heartedly surely we can see him . He will  come as the captain of the ship and take us home, to our family.

Now count how many times ” Sai Leela ” happened in your life . Do you still consider only Sai’s real human form appearing infront of you as Miracle ?

Now  i feel the blissful feeling raisen from my chest to my eyes…I feel tears in my eyes remembering Sainath maharaj of Shirdi. We are lucky to get such a Guru who needs no conveyance , road,  air or sea to come to us. He is  omni present .

Temple or any holy places are not his only residence. Where ever theres pure love, Sai comes there .Humble devotion alone is enough and sai will come to you in some form.

Like the Sun shines every where from Kanyakumari to Kashmir, our Shirdi Saibaba is present every where. We need eyes to see him. Forms may vary but atman ( soul ) is that of Sai.

Next time you get food, coffee  and a timely guidance , advice or help from Mother, Father, friends, relatives and strangers . Believe my words . You have seen Sai – in Human form.

C.Venkatraman

Little servant of sainath

july 4th 2011

Note : This article does not deny shirdi saibaba leela where he does really appear in flesh to some devotees. Sometimes in real and mostly in dream.  we can speak about it happily but that’s really not necessary when Sai lives in every single life in this universe. Lets learn to see sai beyond his form.