Some get upset with Sai, Some loose faith and very few surrender to Shirdi Saibaba

Sairam friends,

Its been years that i don’t have a good career which makes my parents worry too much. Irrespective of my love for shirdi saibaba , i honestly get upset at times asking to sai when i do so much to you why should i suffer like this and how am i going to make my parents happy. After my MBA i realized my unhappiness towards saibaba and i generally became too depressed and sad. I am getting old  and sai alone knows whats good for me.

Saibaba Photo courtesy – The photos in this article is contributed by devotees who don’t wish their name be published . May sai bless their family for these amazing work. Sai will be happy when we give respect to people who help us with inspiration. These beautiful saibaba photos inspired me to write this article. Its the saibaba mandhir of Dev baba from Ambarnath who lived between 1930’s to 1994 probably after saibabas samadhi .

One reason i write about my problems is to make millions of sai devotee realize

Not all wishes are fulfilled by Shirdi Saibaba , Lets  Love Sai beyond our needs  :

In 2009 i received a mail from a Sai devotee that i am wrong in requesting sai devotees to do Shradha Saburi pooja which i created to simplify sai pooja and make sure sai devotees spend atleast 10 minutes for remembering sai in thier busy life.

Honestly i agree i am wrong because Saibaba never ever requested to do any purticular way of pooja,ritual or devotion . ( i have explained why i still ask devotees to do such pooja somewhere below in this  article )

Sai knows every single devotee will be different.

Sai loves devotion – Pure bhakti shown in any form of Nava vidha bhakti – 9 forms of bhakti

Some like to sing bhajans, some like to just listen to Saibaba aarti, Some likes to read ( parayan of Sai satcharitra ), Some like just physical work ( seva in temple …example…everyday in Nagasai mandhir i never get exited to attend aarti, instead i get the dhuni keys, open the door and clean the dhuni while aarti is going on. The fire, sacred ashes, getting down dhuni tank and wiping the hot pieces of wood …All this satisfies me though sometimes i get burnt in hand, eyes pain due to heat and my mother scolds me as i reach home with dirty shirt and hair will be full of ashes.  I run into my room before as soon as i reach home..he he

Coming back to help sai devotees accept the fact that not all wishes are fulfilled by saibaba , I wonder how the Sai nav guruwar vrat – 9 thursday vrat alone is so popular that people learn it by word of mouth from friends and believe once its done, then their wish will be fulfilled.  Infact i also have guided many to do nav guruvar vrat , shradha saburi pooja, lighting lamps, etc. All these pooja , rituals and any kind of bhakti like reciting a mantra, singing aarti , reading Sai Satcharitra does have a great effect on our welfare. Sai does help us but it depends on person to person , their own past karma and the intense of their faith which determines their wish will be fulfilled or not.

Many sai children write to me with desperate need

A mother who wants to have child and waiting for years

A mother whos waiting over 2 years for her daughters admission for  a purticular course and wonders if sai really is there ( She writes me, i did this pooja but sai din’t helped me . I am loosing faith )

A husband / Wife who wants to unite with their seperated partner

Men and women who look for true love from friends and relatives

and many young guys and girls who are in relationship pain facing obstacles in getting married.

Everyone of us go to Sai to get our wish fulfilled, To learn what we choose to learn,  to earn a living and to marry the one whom we desire and have child , earn more, Be in good health , get more love and care …

I know like me, many sai devotees are jobless for years . I used to ask my friend Kanna , what i would have done in my previous birth

1. Probably i was a jamindar of village in 18th century and paid too less to thousands of farmers after getting their hardwork

2. Probably i stole hard earned money of someone innocent

3. probably i was cursed by a saint or women ….

( The sacred Hindu book  “Garuda Puranam” might  have some answers about sins and its effects in next birth . It must be read in temple not in house )

Saibaba alone knows what sin i did to be like this but the advantage is if i had been successful before 10 years , i would have gone to saibaba temple and worshipped him every week but certainly not created StarSai. StarSai gives more meaning to my life than the success i would have got over the years. As sai says

“What man gives is worthless compared to what God gives ” and God gave me StarSai.

I have to explain why i still encourage people to do sai nav guruvar vrat, Shradha saburi pooja, light lamps , do parayan of sai satcharitra etc.  Its because its one way of decipline. We have to develop a culture in our devotion to Saints and Gods. It will pass on from one generation to another. Like how during saibabas life time , in Tarkad family, Grandfather, father and son , all loves Sai in their own way…

When we regularly offer naivaidhya ( food,water ) , light lamps , offer flowers, sing aarti or any mantra, it brings in us and our family auspiciousness , Divinity and blessings of all devars.

shirdi saibaba portrait in ambarnath saibaba temple

Now the question is How are we going to cope up when our wishes are not fulfilled :

We read in Sai Satcharitra the coversation between Hamadpant and Saibaba. Hamadpant asks ,

Sai , so many people come to you. Does everyone gets what they want ? Are their desires fulfilled ?

and Sai replies looking at the Mango tree.

Look at the Mango tree with many flowers on it. If all the flowers becomes fruit how nice it would be but do they ? Many fall off due to wind and other reasons.

Similarly, we see shirdi is welcoming lakhs of devotees, we see millions visit saibaba temple and worship saibaba mentally everyday but many of them get dejected when their wishes are not fulfilled.

There are devotees who write me like this…

I am not worshipping Shirdi Saibaba any more because i was insulted in my office and sai could have saved me …Some women stop coming to saibaba temple just because their wish is not fulfilled.

Some even abuse saibaba harshly and i feel why such a thing happened to them.

The only safe thing i believe is

You have all rights to get upset with Saibaba and also be angry with him for sometime

Saibaba cares for his  ardant devotees and when he cant help things happen, Sai accepts your harsh reaction, your anger and your feelings. Like a mother accepting a Childs anger on her, Sai accepts yours .

The worser case is

Loosing faith on Shirdi saibaba completely and ignoring him for life time. This is total selfishness but even for such people sai does care as before through out their life time and they will realize it someday.

Anyway,

I wrote this article because its 2011 and people have complicated problems. Their wishes, their way of living and their way of going to Saibaba for materialistic reasons alone has increased. Sai is seen as a Machine offering what we need at one point. Just because we do pooja, is it easy for Sai to wash away all our sins and grant what we need.

Yes Saibaba does say in Sai Satcharitra that your intense pure faith can help saibaba wash away sins but there are saintly ways to do it.

Any True saint will not break the law of Nature and Karma :

When H.H. Narasimha swamiji started All india Sai samaj in 1930’s and wrote articles in The Hindu newspaper about Shirdi Saibaba to spread his fame, Some thought his miracles , leelas were like a jaglaur, Magician but only few who worshipped saibaba whole heartedly realized his powers.

The ways of Sai – Sai alone knows :

To some devotees Sai never gives advices . He says

“Why you need a guru. Everything is in yourself. You do good you get good. You sow a bad seed, you will see a poisonous plant”

It means the bad karma in past birth or our ancestors bad deeds will grow as a poisonous tree and ruin our life. The intense love and devotion we show on saibaba will help for sure but may be in many cases Saibabas help on us in totally invisibe.

To some devotees , Sai gives a failure in career to safeguard his/her married life.

I mean some may get married to a wrong person if he/she is earning well. So sai might make them loose job so that they get rid of greedy life partner.

So here, sai has to do something we dont want to avoid something thats much worser.

( Note – this is just a imaginary example. Don’t always relate it to your life )

and yes about washing away karma and doing good to you. Ask yourself was your devotion and faith on Saibaba so intense…So deeeeeeeep ?

To some devotees Sai makes them experience the evils of their bad karma in dream so that it wont happen in reality. To some devotees sai burns their bad karma in his sacred dhuni. Yes. It happens but it takes years of patience. Even people who clean dhuni for years are suffering. You know whom i am talking about.

This is not a negative article . It helps Sai devotees accept and love Sai beyond their needs :

Saibaba of Shirdi is today more popular than any other saints. I can’t believe how many cars and vehicles carry his name, stickers even in indian villages. There are thousands of people who start business in the name “SAI” . Does all of them get success ?

How many men and women suffer with out being able to pay back their loan in bank ?

How many suffer as their children are not interested in studies and get bad habits ?

How many parents worry as their children are not geting married ?

At a point of time, they feel is Shirdi Saibaba really there ?

The most usual mail i get is this…

“Saibaba has many devotees. Saibaba helps only rich people who build temples etc and Saibaba doesn’t loose anything if i don’t worship him . So saibaba din’t help me ”

This article basically has two moral for every shirdi saibaba devotee

1. Shirdi Saibaba is alive and cares for you irrespective of your wishes getting fulfilled

His assurance is beautiful friends

he said

“After my Samadhi, my bones will be speaking and discussing your welfare”

to another devotee he says

“Bai, you have not seen even one fourth of my power all these days. After my Samadhi, you will realize my powers to safeguard my devotees”

2. We must learn to surrender totally in the holy feets of Shirdi Sai baba

Many Sai devotees misunderstand that i am close to saibaba or i am true devotee of saibaba. In reality i am also on my way towards moulding myself to devote myself to sainath. I am able to write this for hours because i am one with you all. I have my own set of mistakes and realize i myself have to change .

Lets togather learn to accept what ever happens in our life is for Good. Sai is taking care of us beyond our dreams and expectations. Sai is one with us friends. Lets love him for what he has done for us.

Total surrender is not saying Sai will help me. Its accepting Sai, when Sai din’t help you.

I write it with tears friends. He is beyond what we experience in our life. His love is beyond his ability to change your life for good. His love is beyond the seven seas of desires of mankind. His love for his devotees cannot be judged by their success , wealth , health and happiness.

Saibaba at one state tells to one of his devotee

“In this world everyone has someone but there is no one for me”

How true is this friends ? Like how much we need Sai, Sai also needs us . Its just this divine friendship we must learn to develop between us and Sainath Maharaj.

i sincerely pray shirdi saibaba to bless you with peaceful life, good health , good job, good married life , child, education and hapiness and harmony in family.

It happens for thousands of years to come amoung Shirdi saibaba devotees…

“Some get upset with Sai, Some loose faith and very few surrender to Shirdi Saibaba”

Atleast if we can cope up with our failures, disappointments in our life and believe My Shirdi Saibaba is with me. He cares for me no matter what happens, this maturity is enough for us.

During Saibaba’s life time in shirdi, He tells to a devotee

“Fear not even if heavens ( thunder ) fall on your head. Believe me whole heartedly and i am always with you ”

Aum sri sainathaya namaha

C.Venkatraman

Little servant of Shirdi Saibaba

15 : 6 :2011

You can also read one of my old article

Reasons for sufferings in life