Sairam friends,
Irrespective of all the hardships I am facing, now a days, I keep saying Sai in my mind that I am happy that he’s in my life. I would have suffered more without Saibaba. Sai has been with me all through these years and taken me in the right path. When ever I do any mistakes, Sai corrects me or gives me chance to correct myself.
There are devotees who get upset that their desire isn’t fulfilled. You should not judge Sai based on how he fulfills your wishes. Learn to see how Sai is with you every moment. Sai will think about you day and night. This really happens.
You know what. Once Baba told a devotee
“I was thinking about you all the night”
Like a Mother, Saibaba thinks about you as he cares for you. Your Mother may not be able to get what you want but that doesn’t mean She cares less for you.
Yesturday, I completed the Promo film but not satisfied with my work. It takes a team to make a good film no matter what work you do and I am doing it all alone. I just managed to make something. My friend helps me do service for my Car as he works in an Automobile company. I dunno what happened, I had severe pain in ankle last night while driving.
Since Baba showed a dream of an old Women giving me Aarti book, I sung Shirdi Saibaba Aarti looking at my mobile. There’s this uncle who always feels elated when he looks at me and says ‘Venkat, You have come”. I distributed prasad in Dwarakamai.
One of my friend in Temple said he got job in a Hotel. I told him its good to do some kind of job and he must make use of it.
I reached home and din’t do anything productive. I slept off at 12.
Dream about this girl
Now a days, I don’t like this girl at work for some reason. As time passes, I question if such experiences could have been avoided if I had been careful. I often ask Sai “Why did you show her in dream unnecessarily?”
Yesturday, I saw a very strange dream.
It was like the girl is going through a problem that upsets her a lot and She’s in pain. Then, I see fire place. I look at her sitting in a classroom all alone. Then, I actually see her smiling to herself.
I can’t understand the dream. But being sensitive, I care for all my Sai friends and see them as my Children. So I prayed Saibaba to take care of her.
In the second dream, I see myself with my parents in Chennai. Its like a Bus stop during late night. We are looking for a bus to Thiruvanmiyur.
That’s it.
I like Marundheeswarar temple near my uncles flat in Thiruvanmiyur at Chennai. Somehow, I often see this place in dream probably since my Sister and myself often go to uncles place during summer holidays when we were kids.
I have so many friends across India and I wonder why should I specifically see this girl at work in dream? Anyway, I am out of it now and never bother about this issue. I divert myself by speaking to my Sai friends and often tell Sai “Baba, there are other wonderful girls around in this world”.
We desires to visit my Sister before winter as my Mom can’t bear it but now the situation is that we can only go during winter if we get Visa. I tell my parents that everything is for good and anyway, we have to renew their Visa. So lets get it done and see what to do about it.
One of the reason I thank Saibaba often these days is that I am happy. We cannot force Saibaba to answer us. For more than a year I was confused about this girl at work and kept asking Sai about it and got angry with him. Now, I changed myself. I told Sai that it could have happened for some reason and I am out of it.
When we don’t have any needs and desires, we will obviously thank Sai for his presence in our life
OK Tata.
Sai blessings
Venkat
