Sairam friends,
I think its unnecessary that I drove my Car so fast during the weekend. My friends told me that my car isn’t suitable for such speed and I must be careful. I told them that I was just excited and will be careful in future. I am writing this because my uncle who met with an accident 4-5 month back was simply standing in the bus stop. A guy came in Bike and hit his leg. He had to face 2 surgeries now and could not walk. He called me with so much fear since his biopsy report had come. The report isn’t too dangerous but seems theres some issue.
Again and again something makes me write that India is really not a country for two wheeler ride. May be, this fear can’t be justified because even when you travel by any other vehicle you might face an accident. The point is, in two wheeler, your chances of getting hit is too high. I get worried when ever I see people traveling in two wheeler with little babies and kids.
Saibaba blessed me with a dream to show that I fear too much for little things in life
The dream was like this..
I am in 4th floor of a school near staircase. Some kids were walking up and down the staircase but to my shock, there was no steel handle or wall on one side of the staircase.It was completely open in one side. Some kids were shivering to cross this part of the staircase as one wrong step could prove fatal. I was watching this and telling that I am scared and worried about the safety of these kids to a girl standing near me. The girl tells me “You fear because you assume that they will fall down. They are safe only”
It was as if this girl never cares about these kids. I tell her “By looking at your face, I know you don’t care for these children”.
I understood two things from the dream
- I care for anyone whom I don’t even know and get worried about it.
- I fear something bad will happen for people whom I care.
I need this blessing from Saibaba that none must face any problem in their life because of me or anyone in my family. Its OK when I face any problems because of others but I must not be responsible for making others face any difficulties. Already I am facing such a guilt for reasons unknown.
Today, I kept thinking about what ever happened for few minutes and suddenly started having tears at work. Hope none noticed it. I get scared even to come across someone because I have no rights to bother anyone and when I did that in the name of Sai, I feel really bad of myself. Saibaba doesn’t seem to answer me for some of my questions but he has always been there with me. Sai is holding my palm tight but I get scared. This fear emerges in me so deeply that I wish that I could run out of this place.
Sai, please open your eyes now
Come in dream tonight and tell me what to do.
Bless all your children so that they too don’t do any mistakes knowingly or unknowingly in their life.
Om Sri Sai Ram
Venkat
