Sai,
It all started with a dream on September 13/14th 2016. Since I live by your words, I reacted to it. Couple month later, I got confused. From December 2016, I am really depressed. Apart from what’s happening due to such dreams and the way I reacted to it, I feel guilty that I must have avoided speaking about it to anyone.
I must have kept silent and never talked about it.
Firstly, None knows the way you work. Even if I had reacted to your dream, I must have not mentioned about “Sai” and his “Dreams”. Its like, I have degraded the value of my sweet Guru in a world which doesn’t understand “Sai”.
Until now, I am suffering as I can’t even say how Sai was involved in the whole episode. I am fed up now and wanted to finish this off. I am also worried about my parents health and few other plans I have. I wanted to stay lonely most of the time and chant Sai’s holy name. I don’t wanna bother anyone, anymore. What ever happened is confusing me and I don’t know whom to ask for a guidance.
The only lesson I learnt because of this issue is that what ever dreams I get, I must not react to it immediately. I must think and act. If only I had waited 2-3 month calmly, I would have been able to avoid all these problems and lived peacefully as I never bother any girl – atleast not in Sai’s name.
As I am getting old, I felt its better to focus on something productive that can change others life.
I wanted to be calm for next few days until you show me a way. I just wanna finish this off!
Sai blessings
Venkat
Om Sai Ram!
Shri Sai Babaji is antaryami and he knows all that you are going through. He will surely guide you in everything.