Sairam friends,
This weekend, I had an spiritual experience and I learnt how Sai Baba saves his children from evil. I cannot write about it but I can say Sai is too smart than who ever wanted to hurt me. Due to the kind of experience, I cannot write about it publicly. I just know that someone was trying to get me into trouble. Sai knew that, guided me in dream and I am following exactly what Baba told me.
It really scares me and cannot believe such things exists. So why does Sai Baba let me experience it if its bad? Probably, he’s teaching me the tricks of the trade. He wanted me to know what happens when we behave in a particular way.
Meanwhile, here’s a beautiful Shirdi Saibaba photo contributed by Vinutha Siddareddy
Sai offered naivaidya – sacred food
Anyway, apart from this, one of my basic problem is that “Fear” starts to emerge deep in my heart suddenly. I used to wonder why I get such fear thinking about something. We all have fear. To me, its something that I have lived a life time. Today, I lit 63 lamps in Sai baba temple and was coming around dhuni for few minutes.
There’s this old women who come’s to Saibaba temple regularly these days. She’s very old and looks feeble. So I wanted to do something and bought a Saree for her. While she was in Dwarakamai, I gave her the Saree. She was very happy and had tears in her eyes. I asked her name and she said “Ambuja”. She blessed me in her own way.
Today, I am listening to some old songs and remembering the days I desired to be a filmmaker. I feel little sad now.
One of the song I often love to hum is “Humko Humise Chura Lo…Dil mein kahin tum chupa lo”
We all react to events in our life and emotionally express it because we think “About ourselves”.
We think about “I”
The feeling that “Why is it happening “TO ME” makes us worry about life.
Even the kind of “Fear” emerges in my heart could be because I think that I am “Venkat”.
As long as I don’t let go of me (The ego called “I AM”) from myself, my fear too will keep emerging in me.
One of the best ways to live a peaceful life through Sai devotion is by giving up ourselves and let Sai reside in us. Deep in us.
Sai…Steal me from myself
Let the thought about “Me” disappear
Take control of my life as I keep telling myself “Why should I fear when Sai lives within me?”
I simply have Sai
The thought about myself got saturated in “Sai”
Sai stole me from myself and hid me in his heart!
Om Sai Ram
Venkat
