Sai, Thanks for healing Amma

Sairam friends,

Now a days, I am always making fun of my friends at work and sometimes I feel if I am not supposed to do it though they don’t mind it. I don’t like going to Shirdi Saibaba temple on Thursday’s because the temple is too crowded and I don’t know what to do except looking at Baba on terrace standing in parking space. I had some work at office and went home at 9.

As soon as I got in, My Amma was crying saying that she’s really not well. She bears pain as I have always seen Amma sick from childhood but only when pain is extreme, she sheds tears and seeks help. I asked her what happened and she told me that while she was making Dosa for me, her shoulder became stiff. She had severe pain and could not even move her hand and started crying looking at Saibaba to heal her.

Amma said no one was home and she don’t want to call Appa from temple as he will get scared. So she calmly applied holy ash by herself in the hand and gradually the pain subsided.

I had dinner and sat near Amma and applied Udi. Amma asked me to give a glass of water with Udi. So I lit lamp to Saibaba in my room and gave her udi water. She told me that in the morning a Saibaba’s dollar in her chain fell down and she forgot to wear it back. So she asked me to get it back and she wore it again.

I touched Amma’s hand and told her she became so weak now a days and I will wash the vessels at home every night here after. I feel guilty that I am not doing anything for my parents though I am near them.

Ma said that only God and Saibaba has saved her and she did not even have strength to open the bottle in which I kept Udi.

This morning when I woke up, I opened Sai Satcharitra which came to Chapter 34.

This has the leela about how Dr.Pillay was suffering from severe pain. Sai saved him miraculously by making Abdul to stamp on his leg and the guinea words came out. The pain he wanted to postpone to 10 future births subsided within 10 days.

I told this to Amma.

I did naam smaran of Sai for few minutes and came to my room.

Now a days I am happy at work place always making fun. May be, I am supposed to shut my mouth and sit which I am not able to do. I get depressed when something like this happens to my parents. I love my sister so much but she will come here only if I get married. I don’t talk much to her over phone. I mailed her requesting to pay this years web hosting fee for StarSai as she does that every year.

I believe Saibaba has saved my Mom and healed her and I wrote this article to Thank Sai.

I don’t know what else to say Baba.

Aum Sri Sainathaya Namaha

Venkat

Edit:  I slept of hugging Saibaba’s book about Tarkad family and imagined how they would have been devoted to Sai during Baba’s lifetime in Shirdi. I had a dream which Sai showed to safe guard me. Then, I had another dream in which I saw two sets of Gollu kept in our hall instead of one. I saw a Man staying in our house as guest and he has installed a Game in my Computer without my permission. I get irritated and tell him he’s supposed to ask me because I don’t play games as it slows down my P.C.

Few days back, I had a plan to make a website to help kids and adults addicted to Games gradually come out of such habit and divert their mind. They can do so many other activities. I did not do it because I don’t want to portray that Video Games are too bad and I myself had played before years. Addiction to anything is bad and Games are one of them.

Then he leaves home.

I am calling a girl and telling her “I cannot tolerate such people and I wish to marry a girl who comes from good family”.

I really do not understand this dream and its all too strange for me. I just know Saibaba is making sure I am associated with someone good. – Venkat