Sairam friends,
I am not able to sleep these days at night. I think a lot about how Sai works and what relationship I have with him? I really can’t tell you how much Sai has helped me. Not that I am happy in life but my life would have been much worser had Sai not done favours to me. This makes me curious. Why should Sai care for me? What have I done to him? I have not done anything different from other staunch devotees.
Probably, Sai is taking care of all his devotees the way he cares for me. They just did not realize it yet.
Most of us are hooked to few desires and believe that Sai must fulfill our desire. That’s not how we must go to Sai. We must go to Sai with a pure heart and surrender to him.
Saibaba is very strange. Sai works in a very peculiar way. You and me cannot understand him even after several years of devotion. Atleast, I don’t know Sai yet.
None will trust me even if I write some of my experiences. I find it too much of care for the little I did for Sai.
So these days, I always ask this to Sai “Sai…Tell me what you want me to do for all that you have done to me?”
As far as I know, Sai don’t need any offerings from me. I told him that I must be in a place where I can do good to many people. That’s the only way I can give back to Sai. By brining happiness and peace into others heart, I will be able to make Sai satisfied with me.
Thankfully, I am thinking about Sai than asking Sai to fulfill my desire. I have become desireless when ever I think of Sai and the way he works in my life.
Be clear that Sai doesn’t do miracles often. It takes years of patience to realize how Sai gradually moulds you.
Om Sai Ram
Venkat
