Sairam friends,
Couple of days back, I wrote little negatively about how bad I feel that I lost my job. The next morning, StarSai had some issues and site was not showing up. I am not a developer to fix everything on my own. I just get guidance from forums and try my best. Thankfully, the customer service rep in hosting company helped me.
(There are chances that StarSai might be down again. I will try my best to bring it back)
I realized Saibaba don’t want me to write with depression that I lost my job. My livelihood.
My Mom says my job the only thing which makes you happy. You used to go happily to work every morning.
True. But this isn’t the end of it. Atleast not according to Sai. Saibaba wants me to stay positive and work hard for what he wanted me to build.
Sai is already taking me where me wants me to!
I am used to ups and downs in life. So I will comeout of this too. Thankfully, I was preparing for such a situation for the past 5 month.
Whenever I told my friends that this is going to happen, they never trusted. I know it will beause atleast for the past 2 years, I completely did not like the organizational culture. I felt this is becoming a company where millennials would never wanted to work.
But I trusted this company most due to the relationship I built with people. You feel comfortable in a place you know people right? I kept on thinking 2 things.
Either I will be a given an opportunity to do what I wanted or I will be thrown out.
I know who’s responsible for this but I was also stubborn. I respect people who is well learned and skillful. Not people who showoff.
Sai’s dream which I had in October 2018 did helped me stay strong because for the first time in my life, Sai asked me to do something on my own. The only desire I had was to sustain with the current job until June but its really painful to think about the way they treated me.
8 years is quite a journey and I learnt a lot from the experiences as I had so much time to read and learn.
I have to live in Coimbatore and looking for a job here. Just that, in most good companies, they don’t have a marketing or sales practice at all in Coimbatore. There aren’t much options left to me than going for a small place if I am still jobless for another 2 month.
Thankfully, this is a good time for me to try to build my own Startup. My parents are preaching me the greatness of fulltime job everyday. I told them if there’s a good job, I will certainly accept it but I will never leave my side hustle.
This experience is a big lesson for me that I should build my company or atleast a consulting practice even if I get a better job.
I told my parents not to worry and have some patience. Its true that I am struggling. It seems that I am a looser. That’s OK.
I am waking up early in the morning and working on my projects.
Saibaba has also made people reachout to me and showing me a way. There are good people everywhere who wanted to help me.
One of the leading Ad and Media company’s head in Mumbai reached out to me. It surprised me because if I did not loose my job, I would have never thought that there are so many people who wanted me.
Someone running a 300 crore company in Utter Pradesh wrote me asking if I can work for them.
Why all this is happening? Will I come to know about these people had I continued with same job?
Life is composed of such small struggles. We shouldn’t panic.
I am in control though I am struggling.
I have responsibility to take care of my parents, my life and little StarSai community.
Sai is cooking something for me. Though I am suffering, I am actually keeping myself positive.
I work at home.
Every morning, I wake up early and have a daily task list to do. There are many Software Pros who wanted to be independent but they will never take risk since they have a family.
Now, these people are also reaching out to me asking if we can do something together.
I think I need a Co-Founder who’s a developer. I hate that I am not one.
Irrespective of how I was treated in my past organization, I told them that I am open to freelance work.
I wanted to go there again as a freelancer because it will be fun to see what’s happening around without being dominated by anyone.
I am not sure how positive I will be in the next few weeks. I feel low. Its painful.
I will accept it because Saibaba is showing me a way. He is taking me somewhere. Sai alone knows where he wants to take me.
When you loose your job, believe in your skills. Reach out to people. There are so many who wanted to help others in this world.
Om Sai Ram
Venkat
