Sairam friends, (I am removing the article I wrote earlier as I feel its hurting others privacy and none can understand the way I whole heartedly follow Sai’s words even if it results in being hurt, insulted or embarrassed. I take Sai’s words and dreams very holy and it’s ok even if it made me go through a pain. I never misunderstood sais dream all my life and this time I want him to answer. Else it will be hard for me to get over my guilt. Sorry for removing it as I have to respect others perspective of what I wrote. Already i did enough. I dint feel like removing as i love the flow of the story but i feel that someone might feel embarrassed. Sai also did not show any dream though i pleaded him. May be since i did not hug his book or statue last night…Anyway..I shall reistate it if i get a message from sai. As of now, What ever happened let it be with me.)
This afternoon something that Saibaba has been telling me for years happened. There was a girl in office with whom I have never talked much. I don’t know her personally and never really have got anything to do with her. I just know she’s sincere like so many other girls I have seen at work. Atleast, 3 times in the past 3 years Saibaba used to show her in dream and say “She’s going to get married”. Every time, I get this dream, I used to ask Saibaba “OK. Fine. Happy about it but why tell this to me Baba?”
When she resigned from work before few month, I asked her why she’s leaving for which she said “I am getting married”. Think that’s what she said and that’s the only time I ever talked to her. Today, She had come to work to give her wedding invitation. I was happy and felt I must give her a Sai photo but since everyone were around, I kept calm. To me, its an event Sai has been planning for years but I could not tell that to anyone. I used to write all my dreams in my mail and hence frantically searched for it. Over 20,000 mails full of dreams, devotees prayers, problems, experiences. My sweet little big data of Sai.
Soon, I spotted it. One dream in March 2014 and another in May 2014. I can’t find the date of the 3rd dream which Sai actually said “This girl is getting married”. Where is March 2014 and where’s November 2016? Why did Saibaba give me a dream about a girl I hardly know?
Adhu yen Saibaba enta vandhu solra? Why are you telling about this girls wedding to me? And this is not the only girl. There are many other incidents which I can’t write here.
Baba…..When I am questioning you about my own life, hugging you and sleeping, you don’t bother to guide me?
Later in the evening, I understood what Sai is trying to do with me. We all pray for people whom we care about and know personally. Our parents, Siblings, Friends etc. But saints are not like that. They care for everyone.
Sai means to say, even if there’s someone who you come across for a fraction of a second in your whole life, you still must take care of them.
May be, Sai means to say this girl is blessed by him irrespective of the fact that she worships him or not.
Later, in the evening I went to Saibaba temple. There’s this aunty who invited me to her relatives wedding before a month. I usually don’t go to weddings as I quickly get bored if I don’t have anyone around to speak to. I honestly don’t like to be in a place and wish to roam around. But I did assured her that I will come for this wedding as that girl regularly comes to Saibaba temple and we all have seen her for years. Honestly, we tried to go but could not make it. This aunty stopped talking to me after that. She won’t even smile to me if she comes across me in temple.
Hello? Typical Indian attitude? I really tried but could not make it to the wedding. Why this drama? I did pray for this girl. Finally, today, this aunty smiled to me. I felt good. May be, she forgave me for doing the biggest mistake in Indian cultural context – “Attendance in wedding”.
Now, lets come to the theme of today’s article…
A wonderful little sister of mine who was doing a sad face drama for over 2 month
I wrote about this girl in my previous article – She’s my Sister for seven generations
She’s the only girl I have told about StarSai in office and that too because she’s not devoted to Sai and I happily think that she will never visit the site. May be, She will slap me if she reads this but its OK. I know her and can manage. he he…
I will tell you a truth about how Saibaba guides me. This is very peculiar and I never wanted to openly tell this to anyone but just because I wanted this article to be meaningful, I decided to tell this to you.
When ever I think of any girl, Sai will either show me a snake or a worm after few days in dream. This is a indication that I must stop thinking about that girl as its only going to end up in pain.
In May 2016, this girl at work joined us and she din’t like the new place. She was always moody and never spoke to anyone. It was bothering me a lot and I complained everyone that this girl is not happy and wanted to go back to her previous place. Somehow, I could not bear anyone showing sad face and got really irritated with her. Every day, I used to tell her that there’s so much she can do and she can be happy where ever she is. Atleast for one whole month, I got depressed looking at this girl being too sad and moody.
One good thing about her is she introduced her friend Karni to me which is why I renewed the site I made for Karni Mata after 3 years. The Women saint who is considered as incarnation of Goddess Durga and lived before 600 years in Rajasthan. One of the reason that site is important is because many people worship Karni ma doesn’t follow her values. She wants people to respect women and take care of them. She expects that her devotees doesn’t drink. She likes people who takes care of nature.
My weakness is, if my parents, sister or friends are not happy, it bothers me a lot. I will keep sad face at times, but I can’t digest someone showing sad face and doing drama. I used to speak so much to this girl only to get depressed myself. Finally, I started praying Saibaba for her and got the dream below.
My head is full of worm and I am really hurt because of the worms. I woke up and realized that morning, I asked this girl the meaning of her name and she said its “Silk”.
So I guessed that Saibaba is telling if I let her be free and doesn’t worry about her, gradually she will become happy like butterfly. Further, It was like Saibaba warning me that I must not think of this girl to the extent that her sad face is making me get depressed.
After this dream, I stopped worrying about her but kept telling her to speak to everyone. Once, I forced the other girl to take her down to coffee as she likes Coffee as much as I do.
I basically guessed that she has other problems too and she herself shared little about her life. I told her things will be fine but she keeps telling me that she stopped believing in miracles etc. Anyway, Now a days, I see her happy. As far as I am concerned, I want people around me to be happy. I go to her and speak once in a while just to pull her into some arguments. Like I mentioned in previous article, I like girls who allow me to bother them with stupid questions and irritate them with unnecessary arguments. I also do the same to guys who are my friends too.
If you don’t have rights to irritate someone and argue with them, they can’t be your friends.
Anyway, the reason I share this to you is because of the following incident.
On 98th Mahasamadhi Day of Shirdi Saibaba, some of my friends decorated the Saibaba in Dhuni like Butterfly. I loved the little Dhuni Baba so much and took a photo from outside the grill. I usually don’t take photos in Nagasai Mandir but this time, I could not resist.
Today, I told the whole story to this girl saying “Once when I was really worried about you, Saibaba showed me worms all over my head”. She justified saying “She’s a silk worm and not ordinary Earth worm”. I told her but the worm did hurt me badly and hence its bad. I was mentally torched by this girls sad face drama.
I told her, Since I saw Saibaba decorated as Butterfly, everything good will happen to her and the miracle she’s expecting to happen will certainly come true.
Later, we were speaking some stuff and she told me that she wishes to travel to Switzerland and Ireland and Iceland. I told her, it can easily come true and someone, either her Father can take her places or the poor guy who marries her will take her draining all his money. he he..
This is the girl who caught me on Rakhi when I told her that I mentioned my Sai friend in Jaipur that none celebrates Rakhi in South India. Immediately, she told me “Anna” . Namaku idhu thevaya Saibaba. I think everyone has a doubt on me even if I speak to them casually. Honestly, I really can see her as a Sister. It come’s from my heart. It doesn’t happen in most other cases. May be, when you know someone personally as a friend, you can easily relate to them.
Here’s a video I made for people who are worried always.
Note – I have been making these videos after going through a depression. Honestly this BGM and song I used from the Movie Kareeb is one of my favorites. You know, before starting to make videos I actually had a dream vision one morning and the song was “Chori Chori Jab Nazrein mili” . Until now, I did not know why Sai blessed me with such a dream.
Sai gives me messages through Music, Voice, Songs and at times even some words in English or Tamil and I will be doing all that I could to interpret the same. Only Saibaba knows why he played with me at this point of time in my life. Atleast let the song make you happy!
Saibaba blessings to fly happily as a Butterfly
Here’s the transcript of the video
Om Sai Ram
This is Venkat for StarSai.com
The worlds smallest network for Sai devotees.
Many of your devotees tell me their stories
I have listened to all kinds of stories.
I have lived many lives because when I read someone’s mail, I imagine myself in their place.
Some are happy stories in which you helped devotees
You have helped someone to do well in studies
You made some pass their exam
You miraculously saved devotees health issue and healed them.
You helped someone land in their dream job
You blessed someone with wealth because you are Mahalakshmi of Kolhapur.
Baba, but there are few devotees who are worried.
Some are worried about their education
Some are worried about education of their kids
Some women think they don’t have a loving husband
and some girls are still waiting for the right man to marry.
Some men are hurt because of the breakup they had
and some girls are worshiping you to unite with their the guy they loved.
When ever any devotees tells me such sad stories, I am not able to console them
I know words can heal but I am also a human being.
My Words aren’t as powerful as your Baba.
I want you to speak to such children who are sad and depressed.
Even the one listening to this might be worried.
May be, they need your palm to hold-on
because they don’t have someone to take them in the right path
They want you to express your love on them
because they assume you don’t love them enough just because their desire is not fulfilled
They want you to understand their feelings
Because some even go to the extant of calling you a heartless stone as you don’t answer their prayers.
Baba, come out and hug your kid.
I see every Sai devotee as my children and hence, you too might see them as your kid.
Can’t you come into their life and hug them once?
They need your presence.
Show them you are there Baba.
Show the one listening to this that you care for them.
Show them that when you are present in their life,
you will fill their heart with a feeling,
a Feeling this music alone can express
A beautiful feeling..
Chori chori jab nazarein mili
Chori chori phir neendein udi
Chori chori yeh dil ne kaha
Chori mein bhi hai maza
Secretly Secretly when eyes met
Secretly Secretly, then sleeps escaped
Secretly, Secretly then heart said
There is fun in secret too….
You liked it?
Because I don’t have words to express your love on the one listening to this..
Because you enter the heart of the one who calls you.
You live in the heart of your devotees Baba.
You are my antaryami
You live in the walls of my heart
You live in the heart one is listening to this
Touch their heart and tell them “I Care for you”
This Saibaba of Shirdi cares for you.
Because I know your love on your devotees is like love of a million mothers.
Now I am going to show them one listening to this
What your love sounds like…
This music is to stir the emotions of your children
Remembering you with heart and soul…
*You must imagine that this conversation is between you and Sai because several devotees have such feeling when Sai doesn’t answer their prayers.
They say, Sai doesn’t love them and if its really true that Sai exists?”
Achcaha hua jo pyaar ki pehchaan ho gayi
Dete thay jis pe jaan woh anjaan ho gayi
Mausam to main nahin hoon
Jo aaoonga jaoonga
Rootha jo ek baar to vaapas na aoonga
Na na na..
Na na na..
Haan haan haan
Na na na na
Chura lo na dil mera sanam
Bana lo na apna sanam
Ki tere bin na ji sakenge
Ki tere bin na mar sakenge
Hum soch kar kahenge
Dil mera churalo
Aankhon mein chhupalo
Apna banalo sanam..
Good thing too, that I got to know what Love is all about.
The one I could die for acts like a stranger
I am no season that I will come and go…
If I go away, I’ll never return.
Na na na..
No..No…No..
Oh Yes..
No..No..
Steal my heart,my love..
Accept me, My love.
Without you, I won’t be able to live.
Without you, I won’t be able to die..
I’ll think over it and let you know..
Steal my heart,my love..
Accept me, My love.
You fell in love with Sai right?
I know that.
This Saibaba of Shirdi is taking care of you.
Why do you want to worry? You are worrying like a worm.
And the moment you listening to this, I want you to fly like a butterfly.
I want you to be successful in life and I want you to believe that you will be successful in life.
I want you to believe that you have a beautiful life ahead of you.
You are a Butterfly now and worm has become a Butterfly.
Your worm like worries have grown in to a Butterfly and you are happy now.
You are going to be happy now.
Trust me.
This is Venkat for StarSai.com
That’s it.
Hope you liked it friends.
The transcript may not perfectly fit in the narration as I speak naturally while recording as it comes to my mind.
I love this colorful, Happy orange Saibaba so much
Anyway, I am going through a very painful situation these days. I kept asking Saibaba to guide me properly but he doesn’t seem to bother me. May be, I am supposed to endure this pain and show that I still love him. At times, we never know why few incidents happen in life. Saibaba did encourage me in his own ways but when I am suffering, Its just me. Seems, Sai is busy with his other devotees.
Life is like this. Even when Sai encourages me to do something, I face some issues in the end and feel so guilty that my whole life has come to an end.
This particular Saibaba statue is very special for so many reasons which I don’t wanted to express here.
It’s already 2.15 at night now.
I spent 2-3 days working for this video though it looks very simple.
Don’t worry please. Saibaba will bring happiness in your life. I tell so much from my personal life especially to heal all of you in pain and bring happiness in your heart.
Are you happy?
Are you flying like a Butterfly?
Ask your heart remembering Sai and you can really feel that you are flying!
You are blesses today!
Venkat
Little Servant of Shirdi Saibaba
Om Sai Ram!