Sairam friends,
This morning, I completely forgot the dream I had.
In the past couple of weeks, I have found something strange. If I ask him “Baba, come in dream and tell me why you showed this girl in dream?” and sleep, he never bothers me. Infact, I hardly get any dreams. May be, Saibaba is hurt as I keep on bugging him in this issue. This isn’t a big issue but its a matter of my faith in his words and dreams. I sound like a fool for what I did and there’s none who can understand me.
Probably, Sai feels that I am behaving too rude always asking him to answer me. I have immense faith and love on Sai which is why I want him to clarify me.
Anyway, seems, Sai wants me to change. It hurts me that I don’t even deserve an answer from Sai.
I think, Sai expects me to be calm and never question him on this issue. It shows that I am half-faithful and amateur. I am not able to get substantial reason for Sai to make me wander like this. I often told Sai that it were a girl outside office environment, I would have never bothered so much. Now, I feel that my own Guru let me down making me behave stupid.
Anyway, Yesterday, I had a dream of North Eastern States in India. This could be because I have been concerned about problems created by China in the border and on April 28th both the Nation’s heads are planning to meet in China. I pray Sai that there’s good relationship between both Nation’s and India must never loose an inch from its land.
Irrespective of Sai’s silence, I admire every quality of Sai.
I will tell you an incident.
During British Raj in India, village people who don’t have job would travel far away places to find job. So people who are close to Sai would seek his blessings before they leave Shirdi.
Once a devotee named Burka came to see Baba in Dwarakamai. Baba stood up and walked with him to Lendi garden.
Burka said “Baba, I am going to go and find a job”
Baba replied “Do not go.”
Burka – Baba, I need to go as I heard there’s a job for construction work.
Baba – Do not go. I say this for your welfare.
Burka – I have to go as I don’t have any means to earn money in Shirdi.
You know what Baba did?
Baba kept his palm over shoulder of Burka all the while they were talking. Baba clearly told Burka, not to travel for work. His only words were “Do not go”
You know what happened.
Burka traveled to far away place. As soon as he reached there, he fell ill. He was having severe fever for more than 2 weeks. Finally, with the help of other laborers, he borrowed money and came back to Shirdi. Baba gave him Udi which cured him.
Now, you must understand a lesson from this incident.
When ever you resign from a job, think 100 times before quitting. Make sure you don’t travel trusting a business opportunity unless you are confident that you are working with good people. Secondly, did you see mannerism of Sai.
Some saints never touch devotees as if the “Saint” is pure and a “Devotee” too lower them in state of mind. Sai never treated devotees as a third person. Sai accepted every devotee – Rich or poor, Educated or illiterate equally and with love.
I like the way Sai took his arms and kept very affectionately over the shoulder of Burka.
This intimacy towards a devotee is exemplary.
Irrespective of how angry I am on Sai for an issue related to dream and making me feel as if I am a fool, I see the softer side of Sai every now and then. I know Sai has always kept his arms over my shoulder and taking care of me.
When ever I go to temple and if I see Sai similing in the statue, I get annoyed and tell him “Enn Maanatha vaangitu jollya iruka la?”
But then, that’s what happens when we adore Sai with heart and soul. He will do what ever he wants. I am supposed to adjust and even if I sound like a fool to external word. I just know Sai would have never done this to hurt me. I am hurting myself for no reason.
So when something bad happens in life, be calm, tolerate it and wait for few weeks, months or years to understand why it happened?
I am waiting with patience because I believe Sai’s arms are always on me.
Om Sai Ram
Venkat
Thanks for the story. Om Sai Ram