Should I speak a lot or be silent Saibaba?

Sairam friends,

Yesterday, at work, I kept speaking. I never stopped speaking. Simply saying something and making fun.For past few month, I had a editing system in a corner and it was very good for me as I learned a lot through Videos. Now, since I had to leave the place, I am really worried as I feel its disturbance for others. I can’t use headphone as my neck pains if I use it more than a hour.

I wish to learn Adobe Indesign because I like making books. I start something but I never continue to learn sincerely.

Late in the evening, my friend and myself went to another Shopping mall. I was roaming all through a good shop between racks of shirts. I liked it very much and I was thinking what will these guys working in shop think about their future?

I have read stories of some Men and Women who started their career with an ordinary Job and later grew to own a good business of their own.

While coming back, I felt guilty that I spoke a lot today. I don’t know whats good for me Saibaba. I used to be very calm and now, I am jealous of people who silently do their work. To an extent, my work involves speaking. So don’t know what’s good for me.

Sai himself has habit of making fun of his close devotees. Sometimes, Saibaba would never utter a word and be silent all the day.

Why should I write about my speaking habit in StarSai? Something bothers me a lot. Its like, I am supposed to be silent but I speak a lot. Secondly, I am trying to understand why most Saints remain silent but Sai mingled with everyone casually. These characteristics makes Shirdi Saibaba a unique Saint. He has broken all the myth of a Guru and a Saint.

Sai Blessings,

Venkat