Sairam friends,
It is very difficult to understand Sai. Sometimes, he makes me take a decision but he expects me to be cool.
One of this guy at work treated me badly and I felt he’s such a cheap fellow assuming if he shouts, I would listen to him. He has behaved like this back in 2016 when a senior employee convinced me that I have to co-operate as the company is going through transformation. I accepted and started talking to him. Infact, I forgot what he did completely. From June/July, I realized he again is dominating me and hence even before I left to the U.S, I clarified that I want to be on my own.
After I came back, I silently sat in different place and minded my work. He knew that am planning something and shouted at me. This time, I realized I should either get what I ask for or its even better if they ask me to quit.
Somehow, for the past 2-3 days Sai showed me dreams in which the message was I should not have grudge on him or anyone for that matter. I should simply mind my business and forget what he did. This is really strage to me and I keep asking Sai why should I always forgive people? Why am I supposed to be kind to someone who treated me bad?
I am really confused on what Saibaba expects from me?
Having said that, I can understand the reason why this guy shouted?
An individual who is not qualified and don’t have enough knowledge in the area he’s leading will try to secure his position only by dominating others and dumping them down.
Even when he was shouting at me, I simply looked at him calmly, said few words and walked away.
I usually shout at him but this time, I was shocked why he’s speaking like a stupid. He was jumping…i am lead..i am lead and I felt really pity for him. “Seri da..nee dhaan da lead..vachuko…uppa enna?” kind of attitude. One should have knowledge combined with authority.
The problem with India is that most of the people who have authority doesn’t have knowledge. This is true from a small company you work to the people who run the state.
Excuse me. Not every leader in United States is good either. Donald Trump is an exemption. I have not come across a single American speaking good of him in the neighbourhood we stayed. Even if I don’t take his topic, they would say “I am sorry, our President doesn’t reflect what American dream stands for”
Many times I thank the guy at my work for his behaviour in my mind as it made me take hard decisions which I would have never taken.
People think that Education and knowledge relates to one’s ability to do a specific work. It actually builts one’s charecter. It makes you more polite and humble.
Well read people have a nature to do things diplomatically. They don’t bother to engage in arguments. They even don’t have unwanted discussion.They are broadminded and never hold grudge on anyone. Well read people eventually become good leaders.
After I came back form the U.S, You must have seen that I am comparing India a lot with U.S and blaming that our quality of life isn’t good. When I was deeply concerned about the governance both in Centre and State, Sai blessed me with a dream saying I should not worry much about it and as if I meet a politician. This was Sai’s assurance that atleast from 2019, India will have better leaders.
The next morning, I realized its important to analyze leadership quality and launched this site – GoodLeadershipDiary.com
I have couple of interestes for my Phd. It should either be Phd in Leadership Studies or Digital Marketing. I hope some professor helps me out and accepts to be my guide. One of this professor asked me to send the core theme I am interested in for his friends to consider. I am yet in the process of deciding.
Anyway, I still can’t understand why Sai expects me to be cool and speak to this guy normally. While, I already forgave him, I can’t tolerate his stupidity. It makes me laugh to myself.
On Friday evening, I took one of my friend to Nagasai mandir. He liked it a lot as they had decorated with lights for Sai’s 100th year Mahasamadhi day. Later, we had food in a resutaurant and I dropped him back in his room. He knows everything I have gone through because of this girl at work whom Sai showed in dream. So I told him that I really feel embarrassed that I wrote to a girl and kept on asking Sai why he showed her in dream? I told him, I gave up such thoughts finally.
I told him that I respect this girl as she has done has Masters in Engineering. I perceived her in a higher standards. When someone is highly academic, it should show up in the way they treat people. Obviously a girl with such a profile should be more cool in the way they handle such issues. I am such a stupid to live a life based on Sai’s dream or may be, that’s my way of life.
A girl comes to work to work and not to help me understand why Sai showed her in dream? So in every possible way I interpret it, the mistake is mine. So I shouldn’t have any grudge on her too.
On Friday evening, I stood in Dwarakamai staring at Sai photo and asked him ‘What’s the point in showing a girl in dream whom I don’t even know and you did it for 2 years”.
The only justification I could give is that may be, I am destined to pray for her.
In the past 2 years, I had prayed so much for this girl that even she would have not done. So all is well if she marries the guy she likes.
I have never ever been misguided by Sai dreams in the past 11 years. So I am trying to give my own answers for what Sai made me experience.
Its certainly hard to understand Sai and his ways.
I don’t know why Sai expects me to be normal to the guy at work irrespective of him behaving rude?
I don’t know why Sai showed some girl in dream for 2 years and let me unanswered?
Its truly a mystry.
I have my own fears and insecurity.
There’s so much I have to learn in my own field. I don’t have handson knowledge in some tools which professionals in Marketing uses. I am not industry ready and spent years doing nothing because I wanted to live in Coimbatore.When I ask for opportunity its not about hike in my salary . Its about doing things whats being practiced in the industry.
If I am facing problem for speaking up that I would like to implement what’s normally practiced in the industry to the extent that I would loose my job, its just because people don’t like “Light”. They want to keep everything in darkness.
My real anger should be on my own ignorance and the fact that I possess very little knoweldge.
Probably, Sai wants me to see how I can correct myself rather than being angry on silly idiots.
Wish everything goes smooth at my workplace but for that I should have patience. I should remain calm as much as I can.
I should thank my Sai friends Namrata, Preeti, Varalakshmi and few other girls who have been so kind to me and been there for me when I am depressed. Namratra asked me to read Sai Satcharita and hence I started reading last night.
Is this a message for every one who reads StarSai?
Probably it is.
Sai expects you to be kind to people even if they are rude to you.
Smile to people who want to take you down. They should be fuming..he he.
(I was enquiring my Sister as she had been to a friends wedding in Omaha. Seems winter has started. They started from Omaha to Siouxfalls. She knows I love taking photos from car. So she sent me this snow fall in road. I asked her “What happened to those green grasses and trees? Snow has covered everything.
While we were on way to Mt.Rushmore, I told my BIL that “Its good we came to U.S in Summer”. He told me “You don’t know what you are missing”. Winter is beautiful and kids love it most as they can have fun too.)
Welcome to Winter. As the season has changed, lets hope that your life also has some positive changes.
Om Sai Ram
Venkat
Just think,who is in delusion?we only perceive people as per own viewpoint.we hate others , especially when we see faults in them,and then find that our shortcomings have resemblances.
The aim of life is to know Sai.the rest is all Maya.unreal.dont hate or love excessively,but show mercy to all.Sai says I love him who doesn’t believe in giving tit for tat.
But silently bears all criticism
Jai Sai