You gotta go through all sufferings silently and withstand the storm in your life

Sairam friends,

My cousin is getting married tommorow and hence some of my aunts and Dads relatives have come home. This girl is the one who helped me doing photography of Saibaba statue which is featured in SaiMother.com  After the shoot, she asked me to send the photograph. I never mention about my Sai sites to my relatives and cousins though some people had visited without knowing its my site and caught me red handed. Next time when they meet me, they say that some of my friends in office were looking at your site every Thursday. he he…

This girl was in love with someone during her college, went to the U.S for M.S and got married now. Everything was good but the orchestra music was too loud for me.

Yesterday, I had a dream which was very divine. Its like, I am searching my cupboard and found a box inside which I had kept many Udi packet from Shirdi. Surprisingly, I see Cow dung powder instead of Baba’s Udi. It was a divine dream and I felt Cow is a sign of auspiciousness. Further, I used to tell all devotees living abroad that you don’t really need Udi from Shirdi. Even if you make Rice as powder and apply it on forehead remembering Shirdi Saibaba, it becomes as powerful as Udi you got from Sai’s own palm.

So even though the Cow dung powder was in Udi packet, I felt it as powerful Udi.

Read article I wrote for Sai devotees living abroad and who can’t easily get Udi from Shirdi – Shirdi Saibaba’s Udi can be created by yourself

You gotta go through all sufferings silently and withstand the storm in your life

I woke up and did some reasearch. I found some case studies about the health hazards of artificially made Cow dung powder and how some people commit suicide consuming it. Though I never mention specifically about people who are going through such depression, all my writings are for people to realize life is bigger than their current problem and situation. You have to live and go through all the hell in this world. Sai may not seem to be there for you during some painful situation but he’s hiding in your heart. You just did not feel his presence in your heart.

Sai knows your pain. So be strong internally. 

I continued to do research on Cow Dung and found someone wrote a book on how millions of square feet of soil has around the world has been spoilt since we use fertilizers where as Cow dung was used by ancient farmers as a manure. I found another reason why Sai showed Cow dung powder instead of Udi in dream. I shall discuss about it later on.

Don’t you have desire to come to America?

After we came back from wedding reception, my aunt who’s settled in America for over a decade called up and spoke to me after long. The way she speaks will be like honey…Yeen kannu…America varanumnu aasaye illaya! – Don’t you have desire to come to America?

I always tease my Father that his Sister knows to speak as if honey is flowing down but this time, I felt she’s calling me with affection. She told me, visit your Sister for a month and stay withus few days in Detroit. Infact, only today, I realized that I had never desired to even visit America though I always track what’s happening in Tech Startups and speak about innovation and culture over there. My Aunt said, it might be little difficult to get Visa due to Trump..he he but for as a visitor, I might get it too.

I also desire to see my Sister, Bil and Katya.I am really fedup with my life and wish to visit them for a month this year. Not sure what’s gonna happen. Lets see. I shall apply for Visa once my Parents Visa gets renewed. Thats one big task ahead of me for this year.

I am worried about someone

I was trying to sleep this afternoon remembering Sai and was chanting his holy name too hugging a Sai book. The past 2 days, I suddenly start to worry about this girl and its a scary feeling. I told Baba, please bring happiness in her heart and don’t make me fear like this. I can’t understand why this is happening in me when this girl seems to be alright and happy. May be,  when ever my parents are not well, I am also assuming people dear to me won’t be doing good. I will be really relaxed if this girl marries soon. I have so many other stuff to do than facing such fear.

Call from Shirdi

I got irritated after a while and told Baba, why can’t I sleep now? I am getting some fear again deep in my heart Baba. I woke up and saw my Sai friend from Delhi Pratiksha had messaged me saying she’s in Shirdi. I was so happy and immediately called her. She told me that she spent some time in Dwarakamai and even sat there for  a while. She was in Nasik when I calledup. So I requested her to go to Sivanesan Swamiji Samadhi just 2 kms from Shirdi in Pimpalwadi road. I asked her to send photos of her trip too.

Belgium Assignment

Something surprising happened this evening after the call from Shirdi. Someone who serves as a advisor to a huge venture capital firm in Europe had mailed me if I can do affordable videos for him. I told him that I am based in India and can edit it for him if he asks his team to shoot. I felt happy for such mails. On the other hand, I realized only the place I work doesn’t recogonize my work. The rest of the world seems to be interested in giving me assignment.

There’s a reason why I mention this now. My life would have been filled with opportunities if I was ready to leave India.

When my aunt asked me if I had never desired to come to America, I did not had any answer. Now I feel that, I had always desired to live where my parents love to live and my parents love our home in Coimbatore. This environment is their paradise and so is mine. Yes. I wish to visit the U.S someday. I will also meet all my Sai friends living over there. Especially Thashi who had always been a support to me when ever I am depressed.

That’s it friends.

Once again, If you are depressed, remember Sai doesn’t seem to care for you. He might be silent and never bother you. During such time, hold on and tell yourself “Sai is coming”

Sai is on the way!

Sai will certainly come into your life.

Venkat