Sairam friends,
I really tried my best to remain calm couple of days back. I did this especially because I am not liking few things happening in my life these days and I want Sai to show me a way. My friends kept asking why I am sad. At times I am sad and I can’t help it. It seems people around me are used to me speaking often and having fun and they expect me to be the same always. May be its good for me too but does that really mean I am happy?
So yesterday I tried to be normal as its better no one questions me why I am sad than keeping quiet. There was a conversation among friends about the nick name some other guy kept for a girl and I told them one must not name a girl like this .If she comes to know then she must be hurt. Already am suffering. So asked Sai to forgive me incase as I can’t control laughed looking at a movie poster they asked me to see.
Because of this conversation, I remembered Lalitha Sahasranama especially since the name appears several times in the sacred mantra I really like to recite once in a while. I recited Lalitha Sahasranamam and felt blissful.
At night I kept remembering Goddess Lalithambigai to appear in my dream but she din’t. I was really upset about it and told her to be good to me and show me a way.
I did had a dream as below:
I saw Shirdi Saibaba very young and Sai was wearing Shirt over which was imprinted his own Art work. In the art work too Sai looked too young and handsome.
I din’t understood why such dream came when I was thinking about Goddess Lalithambigai and was really upset she din’t appear in my dream.
I read some where that “Lalitha” means “The one who plays” – The mother who plays with her devotees. So felt Goddess is playing around with me.
Anyway, My eyes are hurting again
Lalitha Sahasranama mp3 is here
seems i must go doctor..will wait for Sai to heal few days
Venkat
