Sairam friends,
There are few spiritual and divine experiences I can’t reveal openly. I can write about my life and some experiences. I can write about temples, Gods, Sai leela and so many other things.
There are few things I can express and few things I can’t.
Sometimes, When I am about to take a wrong decision some force gets into me so powerfully and controls me. This is something that I have experienced several times and at times used to wonder what this force is? Is it Lord Dattatreya or Sai or the Goddess who always care for me?
I am not writing what I actually experience because even if i write it down, People can’t realize what I really experience.
There are few things in Devotion which one can realize by self experience alone.
I am normal and honestly there are thousands of Sai devotees who are more pure and devoted to Shirdi Saibaba than me which is my I wonder “How Sai makes me realize that he really is living deep inside my soul?”
This is something everyone can realize if they are truly devoted to Sai or any Gods they love. There will be a moment when you feel God isn’t out in the Statue or Photo or in any temple.
God and Saints truly are living in yourself.
The Sai in me
I wrote this late night when I suddenly experienced the force of Sai and his love for me.
There are times in life when we feel Sai really is not helping us and what’s the use of being so devoted to Sai. When such thoughts come, I really get angry with him but I can’t help it. I know he lives in me and rules me. Everything I do is known to him and he alone knows what’s good for me. So I try to cool myself down.
I have experienced The Sai in me so powerfully that its hard to write about it or describe it. There are few things I can tell people when I see them personally. You know , its really hard to believe in such eternal powers.
There are millions of Sai devotees and everyone shows devotion on Saibaba in their own ways. Some have dreams of Saibaba, Some would have got hints from someone like a fakir or may be their friends or other ways. Some devotees experience Sai in a strange Leela.
I have been getting some experiences the past 4 years which is truly amazing as if when ever I am about to take a wrong decision, Sai stops me from doing it and he does it with a force in my body.
You know, this makes me realize Sai’s presence is not outside but inside us.
I am writing this because there are devotees who are really upset, sad and depressed and they too must realize the BIG truth.
Sai isn’t someone different from you.
Sai is yourself
Sai is your soul
Sai is your Atman
When you realize the Sai in you, then you might be able to accept life as it comes and have more patience.
The Sai in Me is really something I can’t express in words which is why this article will always look incomplete.
Its gonna be 12.40 now. My Mom came and asked me to sleep or my health will spoil if am awake every night till 1.30
I was writing this article after experiencing the Sai in me and I feel divine now !
Sairam
Venkat
