Sairam friends,
Now a days, I smile a lot as if I am really happy in life. I have understood in recent past that everyone has their own set of worries. So they don’t like others with sad face. They feel OK to see someone smiling. I am not really happy in life but I try to accept life as it is.
Today, I wasn’t able to chant much at work place. I kept speaking to friends. Someone planned to go have Pizza and I too joined with everyone though I do not like it much. I just liked that restaurant a lot because it had a very huge glass window. I kept imagining that it will be good place to do photography especially if you want to take portrait of kids and girls.
One of my friend said that I kept looking at Meerkat and now finally, I am behaving like Meerkat’s.
I remember years back when I was going out with my German friend Stephanie in Chennai, I always take the place near window in Coffee Shop in Ispahani Center. I like the way the light comes through the window and used to take few portraits of her. After several years, my passion for photography is getting into me once again and wish Sai helps me do something good.
I liked the way the Pizza shop staff was trying to apologize for making it late. Its not about what business you do or what you sell, its about making your customers happy which matters a lot. If you can’t make them happy, tell them you are trying your best to satisfy them.
Today, I wanted to write about why I avoid so many girls my parents, relatives and even few Sai friends suggested. I cannot tell this to my parents but I tell them once in a while that Sai shows me some hints based on which I also correlate few things and take decision. Everyone tells me that I am too old to ignore girls and I might end up never getting married. I agree. I am wrong according to the whole world but who can care for me than my Sai?
I suffered a lot in my past relationships. I forget my past but the wound in me is yet to heal. This has created a fear deep in me and I wish to be careful.
I have totally stopped chatting in Watsup with my Sai friends. I very humbly told them, I am not in mood. I also decided to stop sending message to any friends I used to do. I find all these relationship too artificial and I don’t want to waste anyone’s time. Let them have good time with their family and friends.
Few month back when I blocked Appu, she got irritated and asked me why I am behaving like this? May be I felt she lives too far and I must not bother her.
I cannot publicly write how Saibaba guides me? Its 11.56 at night and even before few minutes Sai came into me as a force and warned me. Then, I started writing this article because no one in this world will believe me if I say what Sai is doing to save me.
I would have hurt my parents. When ever I am very happy, I suddenly think of my parents and it makes me think deeply. I know Sai baba is working on my life.
I believe something good will happen by Sai grace
Venkat
Edit: Sairam friends, This morning, I woke up and felt something hurts in my left eye. I get really irritated when my eye pains. It feels like some dust is in and not coming out. please Baba, heal me soon and bless me with good vision.
