Writing when my eyes are closing

Sairam friends,

The past 2 days were OK. I did few work for the secret project I have been telling you. Basically its not easy to have a big dream and then do something else simply to earn your living. Sometimes we have to work for what we dream and I am doing just that. Due to such works, I may not be able to write much on StarSai. I will surely write regularly here because one of the things that’s sweet about writing about devotion, life, relationships and especially Gods I love and Sai is that even after an year, 5 years or 100 years or 1000 years, it will be worth reading what we wrote.

Spirituality and devotion has a bigger life than anything else one can imagine. If I write about Tech, Gadgets, Fashion etc what I wrote before a week will be considered as an old article but when I write about Sai, its fresh like flower. When ever someone reads even the first few articles I wrote before 10 years, it still creates the same spark of devotion in Sai Children’s heart.

Am not actually happy. I feel low because what ever I plan and work on doesn’t seem to happen as I desire but I won’t give up. I feel insecure these days. I go to work, make fun with my friends, I keep talking always, I read and do some work and then I go temple or come home directly. I wish to plan and achieve something I dream. May be it will take more time for Sai to show me a way.

I went to my friends wedding this evening and assured that I will wake up my friends tommorow at 6. I wanted to sleep but felt like telling what’s happening in life of this ordinary Indian to my Sai children.

Sometimes, we feel its all over and Sai doesn’t seem to bother us. I feel left out and pained. May be this is life and I will continue to work for my dreams.

My eyes are closing now baba. Its 12.40 IST

All of you “Jo Jo” on time….he..he…

The moral of this article is “Sleep early” and don’t be like me.

Venkat