Sairam friends,
A few weeks back, I told you that I was blessed with a dream of a Women saint who lived 600 years back, Karni Mata. The same day, my Dad had given for pooja to little Durga in our Colony. It made me realize how Goddess Durga gave me an assurance that Karni Mata is none other than Durga herself. I also saw a few tiles we use for walls in the dream. So today, my Dad and I went and purchased ivory white tiles which will be placed behind Goddess Durga.
Later, I took my Mom to Aravind Eye Hospital. I always enjoy going there as I respect Dr.V’s contribution to Eyecare. I haven’t come across any other organization in Coimbatore worth mentioning in StarSai. I wrote about him in this article – God gives pains to you and your dear ones because he wants you to do a good deed to ward of pains of many whom you don’t know
Thankfully, the Doc said my Mom doesn’t have to go through cataract surgery and She’s OK.
Later, I went to the Saibaba temple. These days, I never listen to songs while in Car. Today, I felt like listening to
So, baby, pull me closer in the back seat of your Rover mix Kabira by Vidya Vox
And here are my favorite lines in the lyrics
You look as good as the day I met you
I forget just why I left you,
I was insane
All the way to the temple, I repeatedly listened to the same song.
I lit 3 lamps as usual and prayed Sai.
I had been mentioning my Sai friend Sharmila who’s gonna get married this month. I messaged her saying, ‘I won’t call you from today without first sending a message”. This is a gentle way of saying “I may not be able to talk to you anymore”.
I also told her, if you wanna speak to me, you must first message me and then call-up. It’s not that girls who get married can’t be my friend. There are so many elderly women who see me as a good friend. Just that, when girls get married, I completely keep away from them.
Fortunately, some girls have always been my friend for years. If not on any other occasion, they remember me whenever they go Shirdi or if something related to “Sai” makes them feel good.
There’s a reason why I follow this policy strictly. Here’s one such experience.
Being Husband
It must be sometime in 2015. A devotee who lives in Singapore wrote to me that she’s been following StarSai for a long time and enjoys it a lot. After 2-3 days, She spoke over the phone and also introduced her husband to me. He also spoke well. She used to call me Anna like many other girls. Some call me brother for namesake and some really see me as a brother.
She used to share photos of her kid and also the pooja they did at home. I had spoken to her only once as far as I could remember. May be, two-three times. I am not sure as it happened in 2015. I must have known her for a month or two.
A dream that shocked me
One fine morning in 2015. It must be around 6 – 6.30 A.M. I was about to wakeup before which I had this dream.
I could see hazy image of a man. He tells to his wife in Tamil “Avartelaam adikadi pesaadha”
“Don’t talk to him (Myself) often”
I could recognize the face in the dream is my Sai friend’s husband as I have seen their family photograph.
I woke up with a shock and was a little confused about why Sai showed me such a dream?
I understood that her husband has been saying this girl not to talk to me anymore. But why? Maybe he’s right as a husband. He’s protective. I appreciate it.
On the other hand, it was not me who spoke to his wife initially. I am living my simple life 1000 miles away from many girls who write to me. I won’t even meet most of my Sai friend’s once in my life-time. Even Men who write me at times request if they can meet me when they come to Coimbatore. I tell them, it depends on Sai’s will. We cannot simply meet anyone as we wish. Further, nobody is going to gain anything by knowing me personally.
After this dream, I found this girl from Singapore did not message me often. After 2-3 weeks, I completely understood what would have happened in her family and blocked her.
Once again, I wish to confirm this.
What her husband did is right –
You must never, ever trust anyone just because they seem to serve Sai or devoted to Sai and that includes me.
On the other hand, Did he do it the right way?
Certainly not.
If this man doesn’t like his wife to talk to a stranger, he must never let her communicate with such people at all. Further, he also spoke to me casually as if he likes to talk to me.
Probably, this girl would have innocently told her husband once in a while,
“Venkat wrote this…Venkat said this” etc
I will tell you something strange about some Men in India. They get discomfort when their wife talks about another man. They will speak about 100 girls but their wife must be Sati Savithri and only think and speak of them.
Listen, dear. You are not living in the stone age.
Like every husband likes few good qualities of any woman other than his wife, every wife might also like or admire someone whom she come’s across.
That doesn’t mean she lost her love for you. That simply means She’s sharing what she likes about others because she alone knew that she’s always yours.
Anyway. It’s been 3 years now. I completely forgot this episode.
As I always say, Sai gives me various experiences to understand people, this too helped me learn how to restrict myself from speaking to girls once they are married. Everything will look good for a few days. You never know what a Man is thinking inside is mind.
Should we call them conservative? Should I call them narrow-minded or intolerant husband? I can’t be that harsh. I don’t mind anyone wanting to protect their wife from any stranger. But do it for a real reason. The real reason is this – You don’t give freedom to your wife to be herself.
When a girl is committed or married, She’s not writing-off her body, mind, and soul to you. Give space to your girl to be herself.
Now let’s understand why should Sai tell me her husband’s personal conversation to his wife to me in a dream?
Where is Singapore and where am I? Thousands of miles away?
What you spoke to your wife in your home inside four walls is known to me.
Doesn’t it sound “Cheap”?
Haha…I feel like laughing when I write this.
For God’s sake, do not underestimate this Sai and anyone who remembers him with heart and soul.
If I lost my purity even for a moment, Sai will leave me alone for a lifetime.
I am responsible for every word I write here and every single Man, Women, and Child who reads StarSai passively or becomes active and writes to me.
I might share my personal life here but it comes from the heart where Sai lives. So Sai in-turn lets me know what people think of me.
This is just one small example. A very small story that I wish to share today. There are several ways Saibaba has shown me a dream to help me behave carefully.
I feel like crying now because it hurts me that people doubt me.
One of the reasons I often write about the girl at work whom Sai had shown in dream is because I have a feeling that She also doubts me. Maybe, She thinks, I made up all these stories. I told Baba several times
‘Baba please at least tell her that it was you who showed me those dreams”.
How can I let go of it, Baba? Should I be humiliated for trusting your words?
A few month back, one of my friends questioned me like this
“She’s also a Sai devotee. If Sai showed you so many dreams, why can’t he go to her just once and tell that he blessed you with some dreams about her?”
I found it a very logical question. It does make sense to me.
Is that how Sai works?
Sai doesn’t have to work that way at all.
Think about the incident about the husband in Singapore.
He’s also a Sai devotee. Why did not Sai appeared to him in a dream and told him, “Venkat is good. So don’t worry much”.
Ha ha..
Saibaba won’t do it because Sai’s intention is to mold me.
Saibaba wants me to understand how people perceive me and how I must be careful hereafter.
Similarly, Why should Sai go and tell this girl that its true that Venkat had such dreams on you?
Sai left it to me to handle.
If I trust Sai, I must have faith that someday, I will be able to tell all my experiences to her.
In this girl’s issue too, I had a good lesson.
We must never get excited when Sai shows a dream. We must be calm, analyze the situation, and then only react.
I was planning this article for more than a year. Today I wrote it to let you know how Sai works to help his little servant like me.
You can’t hide anything from Sai. So better think if what you are doing is right and act accordingly. This is a small issue. What am I going to achieve talking to a girl? What makes me worry is that…
Even today, when women are educated and have a career of their own, some men treat them as if they own them.
Note – I kept the names of these devotees confidential since I can’t let them down. They are good couples. They are happily leading their life. I don’t have any personal grudges on them. I just want you to understand relationships are built with “Trust”.
(My lovely Mom and Dad – A few years back, my parents had advised me not to talk to Sai friends often. They know the term “Sai friends” as I often say this. I did not understand my parents and used to tell them why are you not letting me even speak to my friends? Only after the above experiences, I understood its a bad world out there. My parents are right. Another reason why you never get a reply when you ask for my number. I am nobody. I will always be. Nothing happens by talking to me. You will always be in my prayers. Be happy.)
Om Sai Ram
Venkat
