Sairam friends,
I am writing this late night as I feel really pained thinking about my life. I really din’t do anything for Sai or his devotees. I don’t think Sai really likes what ever I write or do in StarSai. If he does, Sai would have made me and my parents Happy. I din’t go to temple today and came home directly. I had argument with parents and they also spoke harsh to me but I understood they simply want me to get married. I told them, Fine. I shall but don’t hurt me like this. They feel I am living my own life with Sai and that Sai won’t do anything unless I take efforts.
I was planning a good project in StarSai which also I could not implement as of now. Its painful to realize that am not doing any good to anyone.
I don’t feel like living anymore as I can’t convince my parents to be calm and Sai will do good. Its very depressing and I don’t think am going to serve Saibaba in good way. I am totally a waste for Shirdi Saibaba.
My Father asks me how am I going to show way to others when I don’t know to lead my own life in peace? May be there’s truth in what he feels and I feel Zero. A kind of nothingness in me. I am simply not doing any good and may be StarSai will never be created and I will die doing nothing for welfare of Sai Children and Humanity.
All my dreams are shattered and my desire to create a beautiful “StarSai Temple of Humanity” doesn’t seem to happen at all in my lifetime. I am simply not going to make parents happy ever as I am selfish or if Sai knows its a kind of faith I have in his words and assurances.
Nobody can understand the trust I have on Sai
I really feel dejected today. My Parents feel am always sitting in computer and writing something and not doing anything productive for myself and anyone. They told me that if I have to grow in life, I must keep learning and not sit idle. I don’t know what to do now Sai. I feel that I am not a Good Son to my parents.
Please show me a way Sai…
I feel I am Zero !
I opened Sai Satcharitra in morning and it came to the Story of a devotee Ambadekar
“You must enjoy the fruit – good or bad – of your past actions; if the enjoyment be incomplete, suicide won’t help you. You have to take another birth and suffer again; so instead of killing yourself, why not suffer for some time and finish up your store of the fruit of your past deeds and be done with it once and for all?”
Sai Satcharitra – Story of Ambadekar
Venkat
Dear Venkat,
You don’t have to feel Zero. I have many times visited your website, while searching or looking for something. Whenever i visit your website i feel that Baba has blessed me for the day and gives me confidence to move forward. There is a lot that you are doing, more than you know.
Whatever you have mentioned here, is nothing when compared to what people go through everyday. I myself have so many suffering, but still i am happy that the lord still has faith in me and has given me a day, another chance to live and make me and him happy. Lord sai has blessed us abundantly. I am sure that i dont have to tell you this. As some say, Life is not a bed of roses, there are lot of thorns you will have to come across to reach the beautiful rose. When Sai is there why fear.
Sometimes parents do feel unhappy or restless that their kid is not married yet. It is nothing but the social pressure and the care they have on us. All i can say is, Yes, you have to get married. Leave it to Sai and let ask Sai to guide your parents to find you your soul-mate. Marriage is required to have the best of your life ahead. Love in its different forms, as a husband, as a father, as a son, as a devotee… as so much the Lord has to give… I wish you the best in your search for your wife.
Regards,
Rekha
Bro Venkat,
You already have the answer at the end.
Just be patient and keep praying to our loving Shridi Baba.
Do I have to tell you that Baba is working something for you and testing whether you can carry that task later. You understand what i mean?
Starsai going to be really famous one day……as you had showed good ways to many people like me.
Cheer up and take care.
Sai Ram Venkat,
We go through these phases in our life and I know it is very difficult to maintain the balance. Only have paitence and trust our Lord. I can understand your feelings and it can impact your life but I can assure you this Starsai is not waste and I have mentioned before too that the words on this website is not yours, this is the blessing of Maa Saraswati and words written by Baba Himself.
May Baba be with you and bless you and your family,
Take care,
Sai Ram
Dear Venkat,
You cant feel dejected this way. You show the way to so many. You are blessed to see Baba in your dreams.Baba has his own ways and one must just surrender to HIM completely. Keep up the good work and cheer up.
Warm regards
Deepa
Dear Sai Brother,
You don’t feel like Zero & dejected coz you are doing a good job, In fact i learnt lot of things & known about baba through starsai really i proud of your job, I very much glad to introduce ‘we are starsai family’ with all,
Brother everything will happen good only don’t depress for anything leave everything to our saibaba,
Starsai not waste its guiding many devotees…..
You must get marry brother, Listen your parrents.
Keep Patience & Trust Baba.
Yours’s Sai Brother
MURALI SAI
Keep venkat in peace sai… I pray you for his mental peace and happiness till his end of life and beyond too….
Hi Venky, how can Baba keep you sad, never, please hold on for some more time, everything will fall in its place. Our Great Sai is behind you and making calculations to your own good. Do not ever be suspicious about Sai’s miracles. You are going to see a Bright Sky soon. We all Star Sai Parivar with you, why fear when Sai and we all are there with you. Come on, come on, cheer up, get up and do your work peacefully.
Lots of Love and Regards, Shankari
Hi Venkat,
i wish all your desires come true…..let sai help you to full fill all your dreams….please have patience……!
om sai……..! sri sai…….! jai jai sai……..!
Sai Friend Venkat..
you dnt know what you are doing for sai devotees and you will never know this your website is an inspirations for many….
Om Sai…..